its the sun and the flower.
and the colours of the rainbow.
these are some of the things i love. <3



I am just like the sun and you the flower. I’ll provide sunlight for you to blossom. Sometimes, clouds will prevent me from reaching you. But you’ll know that I’m always trying to reach you. Just wait for the clouds to clear if you can’t receive my sunlight (:

oh shyt.
what the hell did i do.
i ruined a beautiful thing.

people reading this, i am so sorry. do not continue reading if u're in a happy mood today...really. not advisable.

i am crying again.
crying because i did something sinful.
crying because i cant figure things out.
crying because i didnt perform in training today.
crying because i am such a screw up.
crying because i am really always such a screw up.
crying because my friends feel like crying too.
crying because my friends are hurt inside.
crying because my friends keep their hurts bottled up.
crying because i am touched that they are brave enough to put on a mask and smile.
crying because i feel the pain of my actions.
crying because i ruined something beautiful.
crying because of that one comment.
crying because i dunno what to do now.
crying because i am so tired.
crying because i see even the fattest people are loved. that outer beauty is not everything.
crying because i try and try and see no difference.
crying because i can sense the sadness in my friends and i cant do anything.
crying because xiao long nu and yang guo are separated in the episode i watched.
crying because i am such a witch.
crying because i am pms-ing.
crying because i've been hated.

this is where the song comes in.
this is the story of a girl, who cried a river and drowned the whole world.

seriously, how much smaller can my eyes shrink.
i screwed everything up.
welcome to my life.

taken with monkey's hp. i look so kiddish laaa!!!!!

shu and alex ahh, i will kill you guys some other day. rawr. maluuuu me only.

went to queensway with them too. and monkey was randomizing all the way laaa. and Gin was being irritating! i thought why there were crikets on the bus siaa! And IMH boy was just sitting there and talking nonsense tooo. haha. Gary was the emo boy today..he didnt seem to be as talkative after we mentioned his old flame...see how relationships hurt people so bad.

got to play around 5 points today...i was happy but i was very very nervous...and I went to roll the ball over, got a yellow card, and made my team lose a point to the opponents. (only realized it after i heard rena scold "wah lao. 一分 leh!" I feel so sorry. I feeel so bad~ oh my tian laa. why did i have to do that. sorry guys. ='( i'll better myself. i promise. i'll do my best.....

watched the guys match today... so proud of monkey and IMH patient! i can see that they are really striving hard and giving their best, and they give me the motivation to do better... you guys did well today. monkey did 3 nice blocks and nice spikes, and IMH patient was diving everywhere to get the ball and set it up. feel so proud and happy for themm...even though they lost to st. hilda's. but i am really touched to see them play so hard for the team. jiayou for tmr's match!! just go out there and play the way you guys did today. =)

and i wanna thank my partner for always being there for me.
love youu loadddies janjan. wouldnt have improved without your help; your cheers.
you've touched me with the beauty within youu.
i'll continue to da fang with you. and we have to improve together again kkies?
i am just soo happy to see you improving soo much. i was like some proud mum that had her ballooon inflated in her when she heard coach praising youu today. hahas =)
jiayou my dearest partner! =)))
MEL <3 HER DEAREST PARTNER JAN JAN!

thanks for being theree.
u're loved. =)

yet another hectic day has passed by.
RP won TP.
yes. we won!
so many things happened today.

and i thank God for giving me wonderful friends.
they're my angels who cheer me up.
jan jan, monkey. you're loved. =)
thanks alot.

8 hours of sleep.
tmr i finally get to watch guy's match.
jiayous!!

randomizing of the day: Red Butted Baboon! *grins*

shu and jan jan. you 2 played well today! mel's proud! =)
strive hard again tmr! i'll be watching =))

TGIF. TGIF?
definitely not tgif for me today.
fyp after school till nearly 8pm. set the new tank up for the new batch of crabs.
joanne didnt come again laa..like is she in the team or not.

so sleepy. so tiredddd.
i see my tempting bed behind me...
to sleep? or to read a novel?
i'm giddy again. and seriously, i am not anaemic...
think i am gonna fall asleep on my laptop and end up with alphabets on my face again. >_< haha.

whacked monkey damn hard in the head today. lol.
and the sound was so loud...I was thinking to myself, "hello. ais there anything in there?
if not, why issit hollow?" LOL. wahaha.

learnt how to fold straw hearts for the first time at macs with madd and suxin today~! its quite simple actually. here's my first attempt:


nice nice? =D

people are always scared of karma. they like to say what goes around comes around...
and I used to disagree..laughing my heads out...now i think,
maybe there really is karma. haha

scored a B for my bioprocess ut. so upset alrdy. its like...i know how to do the last qns, but I read it wrongly. sigh~ ='( there goes my ideal gpa.


listening to: 3 Doors Down- The Story of A girl.

This is the story of a girl, who cried a river and drowned the whole world~~~

cracking codes. all try it --> www.godtower.com
its cracking my brain!!! ><"

Rearranging photos in my folders. haha.


my cliquee! and our awful photo with sheikh being posted on glitz email -_-" dang. oh well.





my dearests! =D ripcurl beach volleyball'07.





Zhiping's micro. =)





Micro in action! volleyball pro! =)





dear friends, smileee! cheer up! see my dumb dumb face. smile back at it. hahas. =)




to all my friends who are down and out, or feeling upset over anything...cheer up kkies =) always try to look on the bright side of life...and know that mel is just a call or sms or msn away.. =)


so tireddd. going to bed. almost 1.30 already. that leaves me....5 hours of sleep. oh no.oh no.

sigh. life's so complicated.
dilemma.
what is and what's not.
i need some help.
headache.
sigh.

eh! how monkey know my class! oh man. tmr my class is gonna turn into some zoo i guess. Rah!! hid monkey's slippers today, but to no avail. -_-" just that monkey was slow in finding it...but that was nothing new.lol =P


AH HAA!GOT IT!EUGENE CHIA ZHI QIANG. <---DISCLAIMER: dumbass. ^^V yay. free publicity. must thank me. lol. make fun of my chinese name somemore lo. lol.

madds down. monkey's down. toileTbowl's down..mel's turn to sleep tooo. gdniteee! =)

plasters rawk my world.
listening to: backstreet boys-shape of my heart* ancient song.

rah! madeline liew wee lin!
WHERE ARE YOU?!
you asked me to paste you the link &
its past an hour and u're not onlineeee.
and i am falling asleep.

OH YES! you are online!

mind boggling stuffs.
my mind cant breathe already.
who and who not.
which and which not.
what and what not.
thoughts are swirling in my head &
driving me mad.
to be or not to be.

went for the guy's training today. stayed till around 8+pm.
originally wanted to practice setting.
monkey, snake and roy were my coaches.
all teach me different things! oh mannn.
gonna buck up on my setting.
i must.

my freaking msn keeps spoiling. this sux big time.
having to type repetitively for a sentence to get thru.
darn it. damnnnned. damnnation to my dumb msn.

so sleeeepy already. i guessed i havent had enough sleep recently.
boggled mind is so not fun at all.

ok. sentosa tmr. i hope i can wake up anyways. and i hope if i do,
madd madd wont ps. rahh!

ok. sleep time. if not someone's gonna laugh at me for having alphabet imprints on my face in the morning.

dragon doesnt recognize me anymore. damned. i smiled like an idiot today.


i <3 volleyball. =)

sigh. i screwed up again.
i'll never ever get a chance to be subbed in for even a point in the u19, judging from my shitified performance.
its just that... i feel so rotten.
rotten as a person, rotten as a player. plain rotten.
person?
yeah. cant help feeling i am fat.
yeah. madd's right about something about me too.
i cant treat everyone as just a friend.
i've got to think about how they feel too.
yeah. i lack self confidence as times.
yeah. i hate being alone.
yeah. i am scared of virtually everything.cockroaches.ghosts..u name it.
player?
yeah. i cant set for peanuts.
yeah. i cant receive as well as everyone too.
yeah. neither in terms of spiking.
yeah. have been benched from the very start.
yeah. letting my teammates down.
i feel so horrible.

someone had just as much of a bad day as me.
cheer up kk. i know you can do better.
take this as a learning experience, a stepping stone,
and do better next time...
jiayou. prove it to your coach. &
thanks for confiding in me.

sometimes i wished i had a really good confidante too.
ah, forget it. i dont confide in that many ppl anywaes.

saw partner's blog while browsing in class today.
dear partner, beauty is part of hotness too, and I love you for the way you are.
you're beautiful as a person.
jiayou for the remaining u19 matches kkies?
and i want my icecream. hahaa.
saw how heartbroken my buddy was too.
cheer up kk girl.
i'll knock some sense into him if i need to.
in the meanwhile, dont rule out the others in your life.
you can find better honestly. may my sunshine dry away your tears
and bring warmth in the cold. &
ivy girl, hope to see more of your smiles again soon.
you look so glum recently...
shaun, hopes your mum is alright too (sorry. overheard in class)

seeing all my dearest friends so upset makes me even sadder than i already am.
hope that everything will pass by quickly, and they'll be happy again.
i just hope for everyone to be happy. thats the simplest form of happiness for me.
=)

off to bed. i am exhausted even though i suxed in court today. sigh.
rah. mel needs a magic wand.

my new moo moo piggybank. mum bought it for me. the best part is, everytime i put a coin in, it goes "moo moo mooo". if it sounds in the middle of the night, i am so gonna freak!

Watched the magic show at TRCC today~ its quite interesting! the best part was that a magician's shoes caught fire. >_< But the hua yu cool guy was fairly entertaining. so funny. and then the sixteen yr old boy jerome, made elaine high with his looks. lols. And when he generated "snow", i went to tell toiletbowl that we could be pro magicians too. we dont even need wands. all we need to do is shake.Lol.

And there was this mentally unsound uncle on our train...sitting beside vincent kor. damn funny to see kor's reaction when he suddenly made a loud noise.
good to catch up with kor again~

alex's bra padding fell off today! hahaaa. kidding. but he really stepped on one today. lols.

gosh gosh. i cmi already... so so tireddd...waking up at 755 to go sentosa with jan, tbl, monkey, gary, eugene, alex ltrr! and my class outing at 3pm east coast.oh man.. i shall go sleep.. go go piggies! had only 4 hours of sleep ytd and i was practically sleeping my whole journey to school and in class. goodness me. =| my arms are dying from ytd's gym training. sheesh.

and pork ribs, thanks for the ginseng chocolate. haha. but i be quality check..the chcolate melts in the mouth too easily ler..need to have a slightly harder texture..yay. evaluation done.!

goodnite!! =)

alone at training.
lucky i have sii and janjan's company, if not sure very very lonely one =(
gym was boring as usual. haha
ran 15 rounds of the court, seems so much lesser than 2 rounds around school though

and then we da fang with darcy and keith, which was disastrous,
cause i accidentally...jie the ball..and it hit...darcy's... er hem. >_<"
dang. no more jie qiu without knee pads. =|
And I was watching the guys u19 team in action. hahaa. all zai sia~! =| And coach was saying monkey got alot of strength, just that pity no height..so evil. and coach today also crappy mode laa. haha

anywaes, sii and jan jan were like a pair of salesmen on the way home after training today laa! goodness me. They keep praising.... haha. they are one of the most persistent salesmen i have seen so far. and sii, invited...to the magic show too!ahhh! *faints*

now till 6am, i gotta complete FYP report, and study 4 chapters for UT tmr. Win alreadyyy. its impossible. gonna ask for an extension of the report till Sunday.
11.56pm. arghhh.. shoo-ing to go study already. sigh...

peel peel banana. mel the rubbish. haha.

Steamboat! Steamboat!
had steamboat with alex, madd, molly and daniel today.
And we saw Shu with the canoe people there too! =)
Dont really like steamboat actually...
but i could actually remember what i ate!
congrats mel! your stm is lessening!
i ate:
- 1 dumpling
- 1 fishball
- 3 Fu zhou fishball
- 1 luncheon meat
- 1 slice of fish
- 1 slice of watermelon
- 2 cups of lime juice &
- Many many big big bunch of straw mushrooms! =D

Anyways, jan jan big bully today siaaa. ='(
Partner, you are not supposed to sabo me!!

molly did 4 unglam things today. hahaha
molly, you blackmail me i name them all out &
put the photo as evidence ah!
haha

Wanted to learn and practice setting during the guys training today,
but thought otherwise because i only saw 4 guys there
big eugene, small eugene, gary and keith...so romantic sia. hahaa
so i'd rather not stay and see the coach screamm.


Steamboat Leftoversss~ want some? =P

FYP report to do by this friday.
UT this friday, yet to study.
PP havent finished.
Training on thursday.
Oh no...
no lifee alrdy.

scandal here. scandal there.
scandals scandals everywhere~~
*faints*

so tireddd...
but so happy. coach played with me for oncee...
and it was so fun to try and receive his spikes.
though i made alot of balls fly still. >_<"
sprained finger on left hand too~ ><"
conclusion: ever so acident prone. =|

tmr's ut will be a goner for meeeee.
ah pek also gave up studying alrdy.
mee toooo. no point siaa. the fac so strict,
everyone had shitified grades... -_-"

stoning.
stoning.
stoning.
can i murder my sunburn pleaseee
its' killing meeee~

sleepy sleepy sleepy.
cannot tahan le. i give up.

i still live in the stoneage.
who can change my opinion on that issue?
tameable?

anywaes,
jiayou partner! lets fight on. go go jiayou k~! =)
i cant go for training on wednesday..my brother's bday..
but if you're playing on thursday tell me kkies?
i might go down for fun too. hahas. =)

and everyone, please take care of all your lobster faces and bodies!
drink more water~!

and also,
cheer up k. staying happy is essential. jiayou girl.
i dont know how to console you, but i'll always be here,
if you need a shoulder or a listening ear. =)

gdnite~!sweetdreams! =)

MONKEY CALAFAIR.~ RAWR. !





The Mimi yans! mine's bigger though. =P





my dearest volleyball partner! =)





Volleyball teammates =)





Jan jan and mel's feet~! partners go go!





MOlly and me! =D



pain pain pain pain pain~!
i am a chao da lobster alreadyyy
aww man.
i tried tanning oil, and i am now super burnt.
so are the rest! ha ha ha. =P
RipCurl Beach Volleyball was a blast.
had so much fun with everyone! =)
and my team was zai! hahaha
but the most irritating was the ball in times
it always happens when we are winning. =(

built chocolate yan yan sandcastles.my sandcastles look so much nicer than...lols. You cannot be an architect! haha.
Hid jan jan's slippers in sand too =P
And got thrown into the sea as well. haha. they can lift me up! miracleee. =P

By the time everyone came to my house warming...
they were all so tireddd.
all of you rest well kkies?
hope we dont look so chao da soon.
and thanks for coming over =)
love ya guys! =))

hope june's feeling better..
my condolences.
jan jan dearest looked so stone and upset ytd...
i dunno why.
hope she feels much better soon.
*hugs*

ouchiieeeee~~~
thanks for that huge bottle of water ytd mr. monkey! lol. not like you'll ever find my blog anyway. muahaha. and sumpa..i didnt teach my baby cousin anything! =X so too bad. you must have looked like one. hahaha.

appendicitis, or issit inflammation of the colon or weird muscle pull?
i have no idea. it just hurts if i move. owww!
couldnt even finish bowling today. played halfway thru the second game and couldnt take it alrdy. ended up with a crap score of 91..lowest record for the year man. from 140 in first game to 91. lol.

i am contented to just sit and not move..at least it doesnt hurt. dont think i'll be able to go training liddat...if i were made to move back and front, sure dieee sia.

listening to: gathering stars in the night sky-yasunori mitsude
thanks for this song jul, its really nice! the mood of the whole piece is so soothing. =)
thanks for being concerned too.
finally clicking in terms of songs sia. haha. brush up chinese! =P

got my haviannas today..at 10% discount! thanks a million buk! =)
i like the green color, but my parents all say it looks so plain..
bought it anyway. haha.
and i was so lucky to run into my classmate working there.. =DDD
and my mum malu siaa. she go tell the guys there that they all have good bods. winner -_-"...i was totally wishing i'd melt away on the spot.

pain pain pain.... ='(

anyway, tried to repair my mp3 ytd. dad and I brought it to creative.and guess wad...i have to pay $299 to repair it!
wth laa. liddat might as well buy new one sia!
so my dad was like...girl, we go buy ipod. so loudly in that guy's face.lols.
sometimes, thats why dad rawks. =)

i wanna see and touch real falling snowwww.
winter hols winter hols..faster come! =(

hope everyone's surviving with their fyps. go go jiayous! aja aja!!!
the crab project II shall be commencing soon.
say hello to my mussel smelling days again. sobs

chiong for ut ah! chiong ah chiong! CHIONG! i need my A's!

new masterpiece blue black on my hand.
ok. i was anticipating it.
i could tell how much better the juniors could play as compared to me.
put the most cheerful face i could give to coach and everyone.
i didnt dare think about it on the spot.
i just pushed everything outta my mind.
and smiled.

was practically tearing while i was smsing on the train as i thought of all the fun times i used to have in vball. great thing i've got my fringe to hide.
well. mel. resign to it. as zhu zhu ah pek said "always look on the bright side of life..la la lalalalala"
zhu zhu ah pek finally lost to me in hexic today! muahaha. finally i gave him a thrilling game. stupid ah pek, always complaining that he keeps yawning while playing msn games with me. thats the only happy thing that happened all day~ OH. AND I SAW MY EYE CANDY. thats takes a consolation.

anyway, i would love to thank the team for everything that they've done...even though I might not be able to continue striving hard to win competitions with them, but they'll always have my moral support.
jiayou doraemon ah rui old woman!
jiayou dearest xiao mo gu!
jiayou the 2 tall tall chio pillers! haha.
jiayou my dearest partner jan jan! =)
jiayou 6th month! =)
jiayou sii and hot stuff molly!

i have to look on the bright side of life.
omigosh. 12.57am. i need to wake up at 6.10am..5 hours of sleep?!
gtg try catch some sleep.

lol.
just for laughs.

wiki's definition of friendships:

Friendship is a type of interpersonal relationship that is found among humans and among animals with rich intelligence, such as the higher mammals and some birds. Individuals in a friendship relationship will seek out each other's company and exhibit mutually helping behavior.

i am intelligent. you are intelligent. everyone who has friends are intelligent. cheers!

commercial break for the day:
"have a time out. have a kit kat."
i need a kit kat. someone gimme one pleaseee. white chocolate one! thanks! =|

its gym tmr...haiz.
never liked gym cause I always feel that its such a bad way of excercising out because its not the slightest bit close to nature, and its all steels and machines. maybe for the guys. but definitely not for me.
but oh well, i am going...cause i have for fyp and music ut reasons, skipped that many.

mel's mood of the day: !@#!$*%&@(&!&#$* RAH. annoyed! depressed!
media player currently playing: 柠檬草的味道-jolin. right.just the song i needed.zZz.

oh no.10.35pm! back to GMP. i need to understand the whole flow from previous weeks.
mel stop stoning!!!

moving on...

its no point. i need to redefine the meaning of friendship.

fashion advisor? hahaha.
molly, that sounds really impossible for mel laa.
as long as I am not a fashion disaster on my bad days, its good enough already. hahas.

i heard that RP girls volleyball team is nominated for team of the year! oh man. thats so cool. the first in 3 years!
and to dear gill, thanks for helping me out so last minute for the ripcurl beach vball thingy. really appreciate it. Thanks girl~! i'm so happy i got a team to play with now. =)

yay! the lobster sent me all the 200 pound beauty OST songs! yay yay yay. thanks lobster! though i still dunno what benefit i can give you for those songs. how about not annoying you for a week? thats the bestest offer. haha.

desperate housewives rawks man. shu, you got me addicted!
the bitchy sense of humor's so funny.
and actually, i find the gardener hot, but i find that mike delfino (susan's neighbour) even hotter man. haha. i like more matured guys. =P
mike delfino!

molly asked me about the study tour. and honestly, if there's anyone i know who wanna go, i'll be more than glad to sign up! =D

ok. my grades in sch sux. my daily grades havent gotten any better. after a set of straight B's, i am starting to feel demoralized again. wth. so much for the determination to score well.oh well. leave it all to fate. isnt that what everyone likes to say. so well, i hope you got something nice planned for me...

babysitting kills.
honestly, the sentence above is an understatement. repeat after me.UN-DER-STATE-MENT
goodness me. its so darn tiring to even babysit my dad's friend's daughter..6 years old and sooo bubbly.
but on the other hand. its so cute to have someone who treats you soo dearly and keeps wanting to play with you and cling on to you. kawaii~~
and someone who shrieks when she sees so many cats and hides behind you. haha.
ok, i sound too much like a mother. ewww.
dont wanna be one until i am TOLERABLE of kids 24/7. which will be a long long long time later.trust me.hahaha.

yes. finally finished typing my FYP readings and troubleshooting stuff. so proud of myself! i achieved something today.

was so tired i couldnt really even wake up at 7+am today...and coupling up with my parents being pissed at me for going home late last night (11.45pm only), there was so no way i could go pulau ubin with the rest. I AM SO SAD!!! I MISSED OUT ON THE FUN ='(

training was...simply overcrowded. And seriously. I got this great feeling that I am gonna be kicked out soon. And definitely out of main 12. they have so many new usable players.xuan xuan and all that. sigh~ afterall, i have nothing but a year's experience. its alright. i shall learn to cope with it. I am just not gonna quit because i really need the SLA records for university...I wish i could join lifesaving as well. but well, forget it. sigh. year 3 is no fun. almost at all.

random thoughts: (a.k.a rubbish a.k.a pluck from the sky)
blue.ocean.sparkling.
soothing.heartache.tired.
missed.sadded.drained.
snow.gold.
cardcaptor.rich.
you.bond.the end.
ok ok mel, stop it. you are uttering rubbish. ha ha.

*-Melissa Ng. :]
*-090188
*-Capricorn.
*-Republic poly-Biotechnology. Year 3.
*-standing at a mere 163 cm. :|

LOVES
*-winter holidays
*-teddies
*-romance
*-the one who can make me smile. :]
*-colors: green, pink, blue
*-pumps [:
*-watching stars by the beach
*-donuts!
*-pretty stuffs
*-music. its my life.
*-sweet memories
*-to be loved and to love
*-beach volleyball
*-those havaianas slippers
*-NUM wear
*-puppies
*-hamsters
*-ice-skatingg
*-pretty earrings

HATES
*-cockroaches! EWWW.
*-jerks
*-ghosts :|
*-being heartbroken
*-people who make me cry
*-cocky people
*-backstabbers.

WANTS
*-that YOU
*-everything for my family
*-everything for my friends
*-to stay happy everyday
*-to slim down
*-to be pampered

Madd
Rena
Janjan
Ah ma
Sissy donkey
mr.lion kai
felicia
Junguang
Sueann
Gillian
Shuhui
Jiehui
Jasmine

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As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
Til the end of time forever
You’re the only love I’ll need

In my life you’re all that matters
In my eyes the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You’re the one that’s there for me

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you

Imagine me without you
I’d be lost and so confused
I wouldn’t last a day, I’d be afraid
Without you there to see me through

Imagine me without you
Lord, you know it’s just impossible
Because of you, it’s all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can’t imagine me without you

When you caught me I was falling
You’re love lifted me back on my feet
It was like you heard me calling
And you rush to set me free

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you
I can’t imagine me without you