its the sun and the flower.
and the colours of the rainbow.
these are some of the things i love. <3



I am just like the sun and you the flower. I’ll provide sunlight for you to blossom. Sometimes, clouds will prevent me from reaching you. But you’ll know that I’m always trying to reach you. Just wait for the clouds to clear if you can’t receive my sunlight (:

my head's splitting.
i have lack of sleep.
its 3.31am.
i promised to sleep at 2.00am sharp.
i am so in trouble.

ARGH~
i finally completed my PP.
3454 words
handed it in.
and saw an email in my inbox.
SHYT SIA! i might fail PP afterall!
she sent us an email saying she wouldnt be able to approve on wednesday till 1st sept.
i am so so screwed ):

helppp.
praying for the best.

my head hurts. going to bed.
and yes. i am finally gonna get to play maple tmr (:
dumbdumb! (:
and today roy asked me the same question everyone did.
=| oops.

goodnite (: or rather, gdmorning.

i looked like some happy crazy girl in training today. smiling at everything and laughing, teasing everyone i could tease, laughed when coach's ball whacked my face( thou it really hurt), and whacked everyone for fun..
i think everyone thought i was really happy.
yeah i was happy because at that time, all i wanted to do is enjoy playing volleyball, the sport i so love.
well. its for the better anyway.

deep down inside, disappointment can barely describe how i feel.
a rain. just a rain. just a rain.
sometimes, things cant be mentioned more than once.
its the effort.
time and again i have wished upon disappointments, that somehow...
i give up.
没有期望，就不会失望.

不期望，不失望，不伤心，不流泪。

came home late today. actually. 11.40pm. how late is that. and the first thing is...having a tiff with my mum. well. i already had enough for today.
first i get disappointment.
then i didnt pick up the phone call even though my phone was in my hands.
followed by sucky performance during training.
fourthly i get more disappointment from hoping and hoping, for nth.
then i eat kfc and felt so guilty.
then i quarrelled with my mum.

am practically sobbing already. )';
its just not my day.
ugly smoky panda eyes, i'm gonna see you again tmr.

and i still have sickening PP to complete.

you just werent there.

i've decided!
i wanna change blog layout. AHAHA.
well. lost count on how many times i have said it already.

movie marathon! yay yay. just me, jan jan , sii, madd, shu, molly. wheee.
all coming to my house to chiong horror and comedy on tuesday.
shall be making jelly for them when i wake up later.
meeting you later too (:

sorry for making you upset a couple of days back.
didnt mean to.
its just that...give me some time kk?
i know we have different ideas with regards to certain stuffs.
thank you for understanding me. (though i am not as idiotic as you, therefore, of course i'm easier to understand.wahaha. =P )
loves. <3

IDIOt.
get back home please.

and thanks xiao mo gu and jan jan for listening to me blurp out alot of nonsense (: haha.

bought little melbit a harness with a cute little bell from pet safari in vivocity! the pet shop's like sooo darn big. gosh. and the hamsters are so cute! i wanna see the puppies but i went tooo late. darn. ):

vivo's sky garden is really a very nice place to sit and just stone ahh. i can see sentosa from there too. and i wanna watch the songs of the sea musical too! ahaha.

and i wanna go roller blading at east coast! though i am not good at it. ok. i literally suck at it. =|

wanna go kbox too! ah mah and mo gu..i waiting for you all to fix a date ): where's our threesome date.haha.

and i wanna go to the seaside to just sit there stone. so nice feeling...at peace with the world.

and i wanna go ice skating toooo~~ ahh. too many things to do. lol.

shall go to school ltr to change my vaio back to windows XP. man, window vista..seriously sucks. i hate it when they block my files. files which i need to open desperately somemore. urgh. and worse of all, i cant play maple with dumbdumb! ): maple is not vista compatible! ahhh!
shall go buy oreo and green tea donut. haha. suddenly hungry. cant blame me for randomizing. =|

dad's flying to shanghai early in the morning.. will miss him man ):
i am always worrying for him whenever he has to make business trips. ):

and we talked for 18 mins today. improvement seh. ahaha C:

someone came and talked to me about yr 1 stuffs today. well. yeah, kinda miss those days actually. it seems like its just so yesterday. well. of course there were stuffs that were etched in my mind. good and bad memories man. and well, the bad ones left scars. dont wanna talk about it.

so tiredd already..I HATE DOING PP! wrote 2692 words and counting. argh. and i think i crapped half of it. oh darn it. i hate this.

feel like going back to piano. and i feel like taking part in that S-pop composing thingy..looks interesting. haha. doubt i will achieve anything out of it though =| nvrmind. anyhow doodle and come up with nonsense lyrics and melody. ahaha.

gotta go sleep. maid's waking me in 6 hours 30 minutes. ahhhh. and i feel so zombified now. nite nite everyone. mel loves everyone. except whoever i hate. ok. this is nonsense. haha. =P

and i broke it once again...
i am sorry i did.
i hate myself sometimes. why am i liddat.
why do i always hurt others.

never meant to. never will.
<3.

wanna try out the south beach diet! but ermm. how am i supposed to stay away from all the bread for 2 weeks. i am a bread lover! my donuts! its impossible!! ahh!

ran 3 rounds around school today. 2.4km. geez. could barely make it past the 2nd round laa. 3 round was so totally walking. i was having skip beat (irregular heartbeat)today, so i felt really horrible after all that excercise and gym workout.by the time i got back to the court, did a bit of stretching and played abit of ball, i was perspiring and panting like mad. so breathless.
then dumbdumb asked me to watch him *bing biang* while i was walking to the toilet to change, and well, he whacked the net. ahaha. and well. i was watching so i didnt realized i walked into the wall instead. SO MALUATING~ );

fingers warmed...loveddd. thanks sweet. (:

so darn tired. going to bed. mel. jiayou. gambatte ne.

22/8/07
today's a special day! (:
ahahaa. lameness.
watched secret with the super RP supportive dumbdumb! ahahaa
and hmm. hahaa.
damn nice laa. had no idea why my sis didnt like it. -_-
i love love stories (:
and those musical related ones =D

ye xiang lun and lu xiao yu. the part where xiang lun used sky to make fun of xiao yu at the rugby match was just so evil laaa. but i liked the storyline alot, though it seemed a little like lake house. just that, its related to the piano! (:
i suddenly admire jay chou alot..ohmytian laa. the way he played the piano..stunning. was so taken in by him. =P so inspired to continue taking grade 7 of piano suddenly..but my dad commented that ever since i stopped piano in yr 2 second sem and played volleyball, i've become such a stiff player. ): so heartbroken.
mel jiayou! get back your pianist fingers.

apparently, someone smiled like an idiot the whole day. lol.

watched bao jia wei guo. i know, i am slow cause the show has finished airing on channel 8, but nvrmind. picasso and wenjing cool sia. and wenzhong is like every ladies man. so sweet. gee. hahaa.

sigh. honestly speaking. i still have many uncertainties. many i do not speak of. but well. one step at a time. i am scared of so many things i do not speak of. ahaha.
and well, i ate ALOT of food today.
2 donuts.
1 shortbread cookie.
2 pieces of royce chocolate.
1 combo meal at ljs.
1/2 a plate of duck rice.
1 bunch of grapes.
1 handful of mini oreos.
5 pieces of mango.

i'm so dead.urgh.

AND TOMORROW'S THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOOL! YAYYY! but i have training. wth. -_-"
mel is suddenly in some nonsensical high mode. ignore her. ignorance is bliss. lol.

i gotta go to school tomorrow. cant pon already. crap. ahh!

I think this song by redwan ali is a damn nice song. the lyrics are like so touching laa. (:

Would you be there
If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there...

i simple <3 music. (:

a couple of faves:
Jaci Valequez - Imagine me without you
Sundial dreams
Jay Chou- Ge Qian
Yang Cheng Lin-Li xiang qing ren
Jay Chou- Bu neng shuo de mi mi
Anastacia- Once Upon a December
Dou Yu- Till the End
so many more!

yayy! i found the piano score for bu neng shuo de mi mi! as well as the 3 shou tan. the 3 hands playing one...am so gonna learn them (:

looking forward to it (:
its gonna be fun~

so tired. bedtime.

AND MEL's A HAPPY GIRL! you know why? MUM BOUGHT ME VINCO DONUTS! =DD My mighty almond one and mon cherie! yay yay! (though she made me queue to buy laa -_-')
STILL, DONUTS! WHEEE WHEEE. =D

anyone wanna learn how to make cupcakes with me over the hols? i am sick of my chocolate cake turning out like brownies. ahah ):

dragged myself to school today laaa.
so tempted to sleep in longer. -_-
yawn.
2nd last day of school. cant wait.

stomachache! i really got a weaker stomach than dumbdumb. argh. ):

honestly, though I am looking forward to tomorrow, I cant help but feel a little apprehensive. after all, how long ago have I done so? Dont dare to think sia... just hope everything goes well.

something got me thinking about what I really want in life.
And i feel at though I am starting to regret some decision i made a couple of years back..i have no idea why either. but yeah. i suddenly start regretting some stuffs. but i guess its all in the past...whats past past.

dumbdumb, goodluck for tomorrow. jiayou k~ (:
with my well wishes, sure can do well de. ahahaa.

got so many bruises from training again ytd. this time plus grazes too and a swollen thumb. so painful. wahaha.

i wished and wished i that you'd appear. i think one thing i should start learning, is not to hope that i'd be surprised by anything or anyone. sadded la.

and my class has a couple! woohoo! congrats FEL & JUNGUANG! =p wishing you 2 bai tou xie lao.. they are like..SO LOVEY DOVEY laaa. bth sia! really like lost in their own world. lol. and the sweetest part is. The ring junguang always worn on his neck is now on fel's middle finger, and the key from fel's key and locket necklace is now on junguang's neck...gosh. soo sweet laaa. can it get any sweeter than that?
and they 2 in class like buey pai seh la. ahahaaa.

sherline's watching tokyo juliet serial now..very nice laars. wu zun is cute! and lin lai sui is just like the luckiest girl in the show to get him. i need the tlc too. i feel as though everyone else cares for me more... ):

nvrmind. mel is a happy girl. mel has alot of people who care for her. (:

and here are some recent photo updates:

number 15 of hong kong! one of my favs in asean vball. ahaha. but he's not a main 6 player. awww.

kor kor and me at asean volleyball championship match.

first time i got a prize for scoring the highest in one UT! so happy lars. C:

made this heart <3 outta peanuts on saturday when i was out for dinner with my family. loves (:

an alternative to hairbands. trying out. =|

too bored in the lab already. 11 days to hand in PP. -_-"

dad and mum bought me a new laptop today...cause..my died. ):
so sad! i felt so guilty wasting their money again. arghh. i wish i was capable of earning myself. it just sparks me to study harder so that i can repay them in the future.
anyway. my newest pet, my green sony vaio~!
not high specs though, but i like it alot. am gonna take very good care of it laa.

20th august. 11 more days to do my PP and hand it in...and my PP is hardly done. only until about the company. darn it!

dumbdumb suddenly became so nice today larrs. you drank too much sweet drinks ah. hahaa. i figured dumbdumb got out from the wrong side of bed after an afternoon nap. lol. (: dont worry, i will stay happy lars.

its like...i am confused! there are just so many pros and cons for everything.

oh dear, i am hungry again. ahhh...something's wrong with my stomach. -_-

madd madd asked me to play online tarot reading..and well..i got a very good reading for whats gonna happen in my life next, and for my future career prospects. but...the final conclusion..sucked. it said that I would be sad and alone, or there is a separation of some type that is causing this temporary sadness. that i'll pick up the pieces and move on. so sad larrr!
no more tarot reading for me! eeeeek.

sissy donkey! rawr!

time to sleep. my eyes are shrinking. (:

currently playing: forever love- wang lee hom

its raining heavily...
so cold.

i love my brother's laptop. its so new and so nice laaa. and its so much lighter! ahhh. envious. still got camera wor.

dumbdumb is busy sleeping at home. ponster. rawr~
how come on days that i pon, i never seem to get nice rainy days to sleep. no fair!

darn. sneezing again. urgh.
sooo cooolddd.

oh shit. benny koh's in my class now. AHHH. my fyp team didnt update him at all about our second FYP...i think he's gonna kill me. let me say my last wishes. hahaa
yay. i got field trip today. la la la~~

that field trip was crap. honestly honestly. super boring! the only good thing is that we were given each a yakult bottle to drink. =| the production facilities were like..small? only their bioreactors were big. like probably those 12000L ones.
And the guy who took us around, well...was pretty nasty to all the uneducated aunties on the production ground. he made snide comments and mocked them, which i felt, was really uncalled for laa. i mean, its not like they had a choice right...but to mock them in front of the whole group of us while they worked so hard to pack the bottles, was simply, idiotic. cant that man feel for them???

feeling darn hungry now laa. class PS. left me and yikai in class nia. very good horr. -_-" i wann fooooodddd~~~~

so missed.

was sitting by the ice skating rink watching people ice skate again. and guess what? Me and madd saw sheryl skating! the hua yi setter was skating...i used to think how is it possible that she's a figure skater when...erm.she didnt look the type. haha. and now i can see why she's in ice skating national team. =O so cool laa. the twirls. i wanna learn tooo. and madd still can ask me " mel, you not enough blue blacks huh" =(
wanna go ice skatingggg~ roller blading also can.haha. i still remember someone say i act sporty only laa. rawr.

*twinkle twinkle* play please.
play?

madd maddd is so dead. madd, u dare blog about what you said, you will get it back doubled on my blog kk. haha.

get well soon ):

you'll never get it...
i hate that feeling.
i'm just a nobody.
i really am.
its just that. i can never trust fully again.
but yet, i do trust.
why. why am i doing all this.
i feel like i am some clown at times.
i'm like scared of people talking behind my back already.

lunch. no appetite laa. went to eat with madd but well practically just drank my fish soup and ate the fish up. my whole bowl was filled with the noodles. haha.
good. liddat i can diet somemore.

yikai's not here today. so sad =(
his rubbish can cheer me up de.
but he had to repair his laptop.
shaun today too busy to crap with me too.
sigh.
i hate gloomy days.

shaun, cheer up kk...i know you're very upset over losing your bestfriend forever. But well, your bestfriend still lives in your heart right. even though she might be gone from this world. she still lives in you. smile over the memories and happy times you all once shared together. and you still got me mah.your king kong barbie. haha (:

sueann, goodluck for your photoshoot! :)

made to use the bloody toshiba laptop today cause mine died. so shiok laa. of all things die on me today. sigh. i cant even see the light on the screen anymore. and my PP's in there...and i need to hand it in in 2 weeks. i am so screwed.

no mood for anything. i hate it. i really do. but nevermind.

current song: avril lavigne-when u're gone. its nice lehz. saw it on sissy donkey's blog. (: and my sis is like crazy over it too.

madd madd and I woke up at 6.
rushed to school. took cab from woodlands laa. and the uncle cheated mee!!
not 8am yet, and yet he charged me the peak hour rate. rawr ! =(

and i came home from grandma's after dinner.walked ahead without the corridor lights switched on.the house was dark. so i thought how come my room looked so dark as well, so i walked in to check it out...and "BANG" i walked straight into my room door instead! and i finally saw why my room was so dark. cuz it was the door i was looking at, not my room. heng i walked with my hand and knuckles in front first. >_< so malu-ating.

ball picker today. not fun sia. got warned for throwing the ball instead of bouncing it to the server. got scolded for passing the ball to the server before the substitutes have gone in at the start of every new set instead. arghh.
but korea damn zai sia!! =O awestruck. the way they kuai gong...so ohmytian~
and all of them so intimidating..so big build!

by the time we finished our shifts, we played a short match against 6 referees and linesmen. so fun. and i think jonathan knows i dont like him. wa ha ha. and jiao lian's training worked laa. though it gave me so many bruises that hurt alot...now i can reach for some balls i nvr could have before.
fell asleep watching sri lanka vs china and czq was laughing at my specs laa. rawr. hahaa. bluff me sri lanka won first set somemore. box u ar!

dumbdumb looks so tired today laa. sick still act like not sick... =(
worried worried...
get well soon ahh~~ sorry if you caught my chill. =|

gonna rush PP. so dead. 15 more days to do PP. and i am only on page 3, and well. first 2 pages? title page and content page. oops. haha. and well. my interview has just reached my PP subject's secretary. i am so so screwed. =| wheee.

my very nice blueblack on my waist...fell 6 times consecutively on the same spot cause coach hit those balls in the same direction. sigh. hurts.

not in much of a mood to blog today. so the main gist is:
- i was lied to again. whywhywhy
- i was sour over something. again. sigh
- i went to queue for donuts, cause someone was hungry...ended up almost late for ut, practically running to sch with a big bag, a shoe bag, a laptop and 3 paper bags of donuts. i looked so unglam. like some auntie.. but i did it. sigh.
ended my last ut on paper too.
- always end the day on msn on such a bad key.
- you have no idea how i feel now..sigh.

i feel so unloved today.
='(

looking at the shirt, hugging it. just brings about comfort.
and my stitch has pretty eyes. and it reminds me of...you.

sigh. madd came to stay over today. gotta wake up at 545am just to get out by 615. i wanna make it there at 7am. if it matters so much.
just feel like crying. the air-con's spoilt. madd's sleeping. dumbdumb's sleeping after getting annoyed by me. ah ma's sleeping. the whole world is.

i need to sleep too. mel. just dont weigh things now. you're a happy girl.
tmr see lucas no.12 in action again!
time to sleep.
dont think.
i hate roller coaster feelings.
madd's refuge corner at my bay window...hahas. she's sleeping like a pig alrdy laaa..

bye...bye...

the matches were boringggg la. singapore vs macau was much more interesting compared to sri lanka vs indonesia. but anyways, made to sit until butt pain laa. wednesday's our turn to do 6 matches consecutive as ballpickers and moppers. *prays hard i dont fall asleep*

ashes everywhere again. candles everywhere. food offerings and joss paper and joss sticks too...i'm so frightened by the whole atmosphere laa. maybe because its been shown one time too many in horror shows. >_< darn it. this is my paranoid month of the year. hahaa. i have great imagination laa. geez.

daikuan came phs after training today sia! just to pass ah ma a little something. =O omg laa. its diabetic sweet. where got people so nice nowadays de. ah ma, are you touched? wahaha =p

you name the spot, you got it~!
knees have almost recovered and yet today's training killed it again.bruises over the ones yet to heal completely.
have one on the waist too.
and the one on my thighs grew!
and i am walking funny from some muscle sprain or pull too.
i look like a case of child abuse laa. hahaa.
and it hurts. honestly, it really does. especially when i keep falling on the same spot cuz coach just wants me to get that ball. urgh. 6 times consecutive = goner. wheee.

sigh. was ignored for 50 mins. haha.
just glad that someone's feeling well again.
gotta go study for ut alrdy. bye bye to my beauty sleep =(

sleepy. sleepy. sleepy.
i need to study for ut. sigh. this matters whether i get overall grade B or B+. darn. and my GMP ut 3 result suxs. i got like..C+?!
='( i am so in trouble..mel why cant u study harder for those uts. i know at that period of the time i had no mood to study cause of various reasons but also should have studied.

ponned school today to watch asean volleyball championship opening ceremony and Singapore vs Macau at sports hall. =D and i am still thinking of my green tea doughnut. arhhh! >.<

dumbdumb's still sick. so easy fall sick de leh. =(
dumbdumb need's my TLC laa.hahaha. =p

hmm.gonna study now. make the best of time in the library while waiting.

everyone's sleeping already. its only mel and benjie and kor online now. =(

wanted to look for czq and kor in smu just now laa. but they finished their game already. wasted my effort of walking there.was so near yet so far. =(
missed.

i'm starting to worry about every single thing.
how about:
- my PP isnt complete.i need to hand it in in 18 days. i need it to grad. thats enough for me to hyperventilate.
- what do i want to do after this. yes i know. business. smu. what course? what if i dont get in? where do i go from there?
- go overseas? leave all my loved ones here? what will happen to the ones i treasure now? what will happen to us? everytime i reach that question, i feel as though i shld back off to stop hurting. but i refuse to. and now i am hopelessly lost. i only know i wont give up. shall perservere.
- worrying about someone's horrible headache. always having headaches. haiyo. i wish you'll get well soon.
- getting jealous easily. why sia. zz
- worrying about how my module grades will be this semester. and i regret not studying for ut 3. bcuz it would have made a world of a difference.
- not being able to sleep and its already like 2.25am in the morning.
- ambiguity

too many too many~ i cant avoid it either.
everything i dont care about will eventually come back and hit me in the face.doubled.

kor kor says "he can jump high and spike!" hahaas. =D

i hope you're feeling better already...

1,2,3,4,5~!
haha. just so coincidental that the few of us there had our jersey numbers in running orders. (: went for the briefing ytd, though it wasnt much of a briefing. rather, went there and waste our time just to collect the really ugly looking t-shirt. urgh. cant we get nicer tees! so annoying.
i'm so determined to do well in vball man. or at least to a stage that i dont disappoint myself. if you can do it, i must do it too. what's a couple of hurting bruises.
went for kobayashi with zhiping, alex, eugene and madd madd after that. and we played some card telling game after that, and guess what. i've been jinxed laa. suddenly all my card readings showed how much i would not be treasured or loved by my next bf or whatever. and i was sad over it -_-.stupidity la mel.
was going to catch a movie after that, but apparently i made someone upset. so bubye movie. sigh~ =(
but made the person's day after. hahas. so lame (:

and i suddenly had allergy on my face! alot of rashes popped up.and it looks alot like pimples just that its itchy. arghh~ darn it.i think that cause i fell asleep in the afternoon without getting a chance to wash my face first >.<
i think yesterday was the day i slept the most. its like i slept at 2am ytd.woke up 10.15am. and slept 2 hours in the afternoon too. gosh. 10 hours.

fei lun hai's new song is playing on 933! =D edison chen's new rap song sounds a tad stupid though..=|

list of things to-do today:
- study for ut on tuesday. cant do badly for this one. I need an A.
- hunt for healthy breakfast for tmr. dont like plain bread =x haha.
- pack my room before 6.15 cause my "auntie's" (close family friend) coming.
- OMG! i need to do my PP!!! so dead laa!

oops. i am supposed to be studying..like erm..now.
will blog again if i can find the time later.
arghhhh

List out your top 5 birthday presents that you wish for:

1. all the sweetest stuffs
2. wearable stuffs
3. teddy bears
4. Ahh. aiyah
5. Anything laaa. i'd love it all the same. =)

Answer the following questions.
1.(the person who tag you is ...) Sim Kai Xuan Rena! rawr!

2.(your relationship with him/her is ...) She's the little mushroom. i big one. (:

3.(your 5 impressions of him/her ..)NUDGER. she always like to nudge me. emo queen also. hahaa. and she has mi mi yan like me! =) she's nice larrs, just sometime she spike, people can die. hahaa. =p

4.(the most memorable thing he/she had done for you) giving me a little mushroom! =D

5.(the most memorable words he/she had said to you) ehh,hmm. i cant remember. LOL.

6.(if he/she becomes your lover, you will..) die on the spot. cuz she will torture me de. x_X wahaha

7.(if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be) eh, i said i would have dieded already. how can she still improve. come join me mehs. =\

8.(if he/she becomes your enemy, you will...) still die. she spike me i die already. haha

9. (if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be ...) because i declared war with her out of the blue.

10.(the most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is ...) cheer her up lars. =)
11.(your overall impression of him/her is ...) she's as cute as snoopy. =p

12.(how you think people around you will feel about you?) that i am blur queen. like some innocent dumbdumb. which i think i really am. =|

13.(the character you love of yourself are ...) my carefree happy go lucky nature =p

14.(on the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are ...) thinking negatively of myself and the things that happen to me.

15.(the most ideal person you want to be is ...) a happy girl who smiles all the time (while not being spastic >.< ) =)

16.(for people that care and like you, say something to them ..) thanks for the never ending TLC (tender loving care) (:

17.(pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wish to know how they feel about you)
1. Madd
2. Eugene Chia
3. Kor Kor
4. Yi Kai
5. Shaun
6. Ah Ma
7. Janis
8. Rena
9. Shuhui
10. Junguang

11.(who is no.6 having relationship with?) No r/s at the moment.BUT BUT! Scandaled with no. 4! =p

12.(Is no.9 a male or female?) Female.

13.(If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?) Impossible! Junguang loves someone else starting from the letter F...wahaha

14.(How about no.8 and 5?) AHH?! So impossible laa! Aiyo.

15.(What is no.2 studying about?) DBME

16.(When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?) yesterday night

17.(What kind of music band does no.8 like?) Chinese songs and EMO songs!!! Lol?

18.(Does no.1 has any siblings?) Yeah, she does.

19.(Will you woo no.3?) ERRR. He’s my kor kor laa!!

20.(How about no.7?) She’s my bestest vball partner only laa!!

21.(Is no.4 single?) Hmm.nope.

22.(What's the surname of no.5?) Tan

23.(What's the hobby of no.4?) Lifesaving.swimming.

24.(Do no.5 and 9 get along well?) ermms. they dont know one another

25.(Where is no.2 studying at?) RP

26.(Talk something casually about no.1) She is madd the ostrich! Tune in to her show on kids central. Every Saturday morning, 10am. hahaa

27.(Have you try developing feelings for no.8?) Harh?!!

28.(Where does no.9 live at?) Bishan

29.(What color does no.4 like?) oh dear, pink? LOL

30.(Are no.5 and 1 best friends?) Nahh. We’re bitchy classmates. Hahas.

31.(Does no.7 likes no.2?) NO! they are best friends. Hahaa.

32.(How do you get to know no.2?) Hmm..long story which began with yan yan sandcastles. =P

33.(Does no.1 have any pets?) pads yes. Pets no.wahahaa.

34.(Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?) Yes. Partner is always the sexiest. Hahaa =)


and it goes see-saw again. haha. its funny how one always seem to care more suddenly and then the other goes into a more heck care attitude. and the next day it switches. darn. =| its a merry-go-round.

thanks alot for the treat mr piggy. =) thanks for the company. it makes me feel so loveed. shall return the love =)

went sentosa with alex and madd after that. laid there on the sand and stared up at the starry starry night..it was so beautiful. so peaceful. serenade. i love the beach at night. saw a huge fairytale sandcastle on the sand near the sea..it looked kinda enchanting.lovely laa. shall post the pic tmr. =)

argh. too sleepy already. gonna go get some sleep.

p.s. i'm really really glad u came. (:

so i went for steamboat.
and as usual, i was late. hahaa
but the best part was..me and madd took a whole half hour walking into chong pang at marina bay, when there was a shortcut that will most probably take us only 15 mins.
and before we even reach marina bay, we confidently took one stop on the train to marina bay from city hall, alighted, went up 2 escalators, only for madd to say "hmm..wah. marina bay changed so much ah". I was speechless on the other hand laa, staring blurly at the layout of the station, thinking why it seemed so familiar..like raffles place (the stop i always alight to find my mum). AND THE BEST PART? IT WAS RAFFLES PLACE. hahaaha. oops. major screw up. haha.

it ended up with me, madd, kor, da gary and his gf and alex only.
sigh. what a cosy gathering. someone psed me laa! rawr!
the food and oil splattered all over me as usual. >_<
heng i nvr wear my white skirt out.
and the food..made me ls. -_-"

had a chance to chat with kor today. miss him laa. he seems to understand me alot because he's going through the same things. we are both officially lost now. not knowing what we really want, and really tired of so many things that has been going on in our lives. we are confused by our own mixed up feelings. like why do we care so much sometimes, and other times just well, ignore or feel annoyed and that its best to not think and well, just give up on certain stuffs and get on with a carefree life. and to find someone who appreciates us even more.
why must thoughts be so complicated.


my beloved kor kor and meee~ =)


presenting..spastic ALEX and MADELINE LEW WEE LIN! hahaa.

everyone leads different lifestyles.
its up to every individual how we wanna live ours.
and how others fit into ours.

~whatever will be will be.

arghh. i nvr study for UT. if i get predicted module B because of this UT, i will so kill myself man...zz.

i'm learning to compromise.
but compromising isnt as easy as it seems.
especially when i love freedom so much.
i'm tired.
i'm confused.
what should i do.
sigh.
i hate days when i feel like that.

do opposites really attract?
how opposite is opposite.
urgh.

i wanna watch 不能说的秘密~!

and my blueblacks just got bigger. its like damn obvious laa.
and ok. i am supposed to be at marina bay now and i am still at home.
wheeee.
that sms in the morning already made my mood liddat.zZz.
HECK ALRDY LA MEL. go out and have fun.
whatever will be will be!
gtg!

volleyball training today was really quite jialat.abit shiong. though i must say i learnt alot about receiving.hahas.
and we had a theme for training today.
不能说的痛.
thats already an understatement.
its really very very painful!!! =(
down left. down center. down right!
arghh.
my lovely knees now replaces my thumbs to win number 1 in swelling and blue blacks. hahaa. gosh. i'm saddistic again.
my thighs, knees are all feeling relatively high now. =\
one of my souveniors for the day:

i think everyone had some souveniors too. hahas.
sii offered us spoonfuls of her huge cup of yami yoghurt during training. damn nice =D sii's sharing her love from someone. its so sweet of him la. no wonder sii has that really xing fu face these couple of weeks. hahaa. =P

and yay! its the annual steamboat event for vballers! i'm gonna see kor and get together with a couple of them tmr! =D and kor said he's gonna blan-jah (dunno how to spell) me! =))

sigh. mel ar mel. why do you feel the way you do now?
was i a much happier girl before?
am i a happy girl now?
sometimes i am, other times i am not. and my feelings are all pivoted around one.
kor's right. sometimes we come to a crossroad that we suddenly become numb to things, or get so annoyed and tired over certain stuffs that all we wanna do is to put it aside for some while. i feel it every now and then. and it makes me wonder alot of stuffs. like how many times can i be annoyed before i feel that all i wanna do is hide in my cosy shell.
dont think mel. u're much happier that way. =)
kor said, liking someone. is bitter-sweet.
i think i fully agree. it goes both way on that scale.

ouch. sit on my chair also painful. best. best.
mel's going to bed.
alex tells me i am growing dark circles already. sigh. i need to sleep earlier. i cant afford any more past 1.30pm bed hours.

dear girls, take care of your blue blacks too ok! hope they go away soon. =)

oh yeah! i finally got my munchy doughnut today even though the queue was freakin' long! saw zhiping queuing up, and i nagged him to help me buy. hahaa.
and i chose the GREEEEN one! green tea! its green! =D and thanks for treating me (and alex too) doughnuts on yr bday. =)

ok ok. my eyes really...closing already. goodnite. loves! <3 =)

settlers cafe was really really fun.
but i feel so pok kye now...
everytime alex suggests a place, it always almost cost half my allowance larrs.
this time its $17. last time steamboat was $15. arghh.

played a couple of games with keith, alex, dan and madd. kor overslept laa.
taboo was pretty fun, especially when we all screw up and as usual, mel was making the most nonsense and making everyone laugh. it was like.. alex was asking keith to guess the word on his card, so he said to keith "its something you are going to get.you will get it like tomorrow.."and i said menses. oops. it was the first thing that came to my mind laa >.<

then played game of life, and well, i had an average salary, an athlete career (yah right) and well, I HAD LIKE 3 KIDS. HAHA. what am i, mother pig ah. here's my pretty red car (minus the kids. hahaa)~ =)

guess whose car was the yellow (look carefully. pink pple represents women. the car has 3 men)


the last game was the best.
its called ugly dolls. and its pretty much like snap. and well, everyone was like calling me the ultimate auntie cause i snatched up the cards pretty fast (the one with the most cards win. to snatch the cards, you gotta notice a set of 3 same pictures) Lol. but the ultimate auntie still went to alex laa. zzz.
here are a couple of the cute little monster pictures. hahas.


my thumbs were already swollen for no reason. but after those games, it got worse. alex's rings practically worsened my thumb when he slammed his hand on my finger to get the cards laa.zz

i cant even sms without it hurtingg..urgh. my thumbs look so lollipops man!
and madd looked like cyclops with her eyes all bloodshot.


even though i had so much fun...its just not the same w/o.
but nevertheless it was super duper fun~
my thumbs hurt. gonna give them a rest alrdy. =(

i wanna pluck my nose outtttt~~!
it keeps getting blocked, then running and then it it stops and the cycle seems to go on and on. argh! i rather have running nose all the way.

actually, my life's pretty much filled with alot of questions now. but i guess that ignorance is bliss sometimes. I choose to filter some things I know outta my mind and it makes me a much much happier person larrs. =)

mrt rides home used to be so long to me, but recently, its getting shorter and shorter, especially after trainings home with entertainment. =P

i used to always blog about how i cried over sad stuffs and so on, but i shall start to think positive. =) to start with. i would start with the things I <3.
i love the sea breeze.
i love cranberry juice.
i love volleyball.
i love dumbdumb. (:
i love mrt rides.
i love pigs.
i love music.
i love horlicks. =D
i love sports.
i love art.
i love lying on the sand.
i love the stars.
i love walking on the beach.
i love talking rubbish.
i love hiding slippers!
i love poking people. ^^
i love my bears.
i love autumn & winter.
i love being happy.
i love to dress up.
i love watching sun rise.
i love my mum, dad, sis, bro
i love partner, xiao mo gu, sii, madd, shushu, molly

i love my whole long list of the things and people i love! =P


going macs in first breakout..woohoo! yay yay yay. long time since i did that laars.
back~so full....ok, not more eating till tonight. nono.

i'm so sleepy..school is freaking sian already. UT's over. no more motivation.but i cant pon either. rawr!
i am a walking zombieeeeee.

SENTOSA SENTOSA SENTOSA TMR! =DDD tanning time! wheeee. i bet madd will be super excited to see her hot ass bryan la. LOL

gotta do work. sigh. gtg.

in love with the songs by 迷路兵~
they are so talented.
the lyrics are kinda meaningful too. =)

8 and counting for today. I kept sneezing and its kinda irritating when i get the feel of sneezing but dont sneeze in the end. rawr~!
and my nose started running a little too. hahaa.
darn it.

today went about as usual. went for lunch with my family after fetching my sis to tuition. Eat bak chor mee at newton circle~so oily ><.
and my pimples are popping..grrr.

was too bored so i played around with my blank board when I reached home. Here's the new results! (after cutting out my various magazines..now there are holes everywhere =| )

just another creative attack. whoa. its 11.21pm already.

school's in tomorrow again. sigh. mel doesnt wanna go to school! =| but i wont pon. no way no way. yes,i'm a good girl. i'm going! =) (*ignore my nonsense =P)

hachoooo.
9 times going 10. i just keep sneezing today~!
urgh. and my nose is half blocked.
its been so long since i've really fallen sick.

mum bought me a new shirt from zara today! =)) well. there was some huge discount on it so she bought one for me. =|


and then my sis and I finally got ipod protectors. its called iPork~! And it looks...like a P.I.G.! hahaha

does it look like...? cute hor! =)

m.m.e. man...
why ah why ah.
anyway, since i sneezed 9 times today, i have been missed 9 times! someone out there must be thinking of me 9 times today! wheee! So it aint so bad falling sick. hahaa. mel feels so very loved~! <3 =)
especially when i get nagged at i feel more loved. ^^
haha. i am such a saddist.

ahhh.10.22pm. gonna go do some crunches and then go bathe and online i go! eh i am already online if not i cant blog, i mean msn i go~ if not ltr i'll be called smelly melly again laa. grrrs. I want abs like shu's tooo~
Abs Abs! Abs Abs! Abs Abs Abs!!! faster come to melly~ haha
someone nvr reply me... aww man. =(

AND SHAUN THE SISSY DONKEY, I AM NOT KING KONG BARBIE! RAWR!

Once upon a time, in the huge amazon forest. A girl got lost.
And coincidentally, a storm came. She ran frantically through the forest, desperate for a way out. then she came by tree number 1.
"Hey little girl. I may not be able to show you the way out, but I can provide you with shelter until the storm passes." The little girl sat under the tree and thanked it for its kindness, but there were thorns in the tree, and the little girl got pricked terribly. She cried because it hurt quite bad and she ran away from tree number 1, back into the heavy rain, into the storm and violent winds. then she came by tree number 2. and tree number 2 said the same thing.
"Hey little girl. I may not be able to show you the way out, but I can provide you with shelter until the storm passes."
But this time, she was skeptical. The little girl refused to seek refuge under the tree, determined that it was going to be filled with thorns like the old tree again. She ran on and on...passing all the other trees until she was exhausted having to run from them again and again. Then she saw what looked like a friendly apple tree.
"Hi little girl, I know you are hurt and lost and hungry. Come here, lemme take a look at those wounds and you can fill your stomach with my apples too"
The girl was too tired to carry on, and well, the apple tree sounded nice to her, and so she trusted the apple tree. it cared for her wounds and gave her apples to satiate. but who knew that the apples had turned bad. it ended up giving the little girl a terrible stomachache. it hurt so bad she teared.
the storm eventually passed. but the storm created in the little girl's heart stayed on, with additional rain clouds every now and then. she didnt trust the trees anymore. she hated all trees. she didnt wanna hear the reasons. she only held to what she believed in. that no trees were good...

time to get to bed. sigh. missed. bad.

song of the day (madd sent it) : Almost here - Delta Goodrem & Brian McFadden

ponned school to study for ut (and kor was in the library too!) and then went to ice skating rink with madd today.

i love the atmosphere at the rink. the cold air, the smell of ice, the graceful skaters.(though the song the guy skater there danced to..was horribly techno >.< so noisy. and he re-danced it so many times.) =)

read xiao mo gu's blog, she wanted me to post 6 weird things about myself! urghh. if its weird, and i know that its weird and yet dont change my weird behaviour, then doesnt it make me even weirder? lol. anyway, took a long shower to think through it. and here are mel's 6 weird things!

1) mel is slippers fettish (she loves stealing slippers from the people she's close to and hiding them) =P
2) mel loves emo songs
3) mel must arrange her blanket in correct side then can sleep. lol
4) mel has a soft spot for guys in immaculate suits, who plays the piano, who have small small eyes (madd and shu pointed that out. i didnt realize it) >.< who are boyish, who are sporty. =\
5) mel loves everything green, maybe except shrek and algae.
6) mel wishes to be an ice skater though she's a clumsy queen.

ok. 6 already ah. 6 already! yay~! 大功告成~! time to study for ut! am gonna get an overall module A. hope so anyway. =|

figuring out my pieces of puzzles. =)

and madd madd found the real bryan! lol. and she's still complaining about how paiseh i made her felt for adding the wrong person. =\

MADELINE LEW WEE LIN where are youuu!
madd's late madd's late. GRRRR. haha. and she still wanna eat big breakfast without me. =( mel's alone in the library laaa. =(
RAWR!
whatever. i go study already.
and my dearest ah ma is in crappy mode today! hahaa. psycho-ing her to pon tooo. =P

so sleeeeepy.

played table tennis and a little of vball today.
then, went to do sprint sets with madd and wilson (someone was our "trainer" of the day wor. haha.) The feeling of sprinting was shiok ah. like some fly with the breeze kinda thing. but the feeling after the sprint was like..ahh. crap. damn tired ah.

ponning school tmr to study for my final UT for industrial food tech.
well. its like the 5 out of 6 time that I pon school to study for UT or do FYP. rawr!
so no life laars!

Watched simpsons with madd, jan and wilson today. it was so lame laa! "Spider pig, spider pig...do whatever spider pig does." oh goodness. haha. but it was one hell of a laugh anyway.

people wear masks to hide their unhappiness all beneath.
'm gonna be one of them too.
no point voicing some things out...

life's really like a roller coaster ride with someone on it.
sometimes its the ups, sometimes its the downs.
and well, i'm on the ride.
got the ticket, queued in line, got on the coaster and wheeeee.
what thrill.
I only liked the ups, never the downs.
and well, i always seem to be going down.
the ride's scary enough to shock people & cause heart attack.
or kids end up crying, & running to dad.
stucked on the ride, who can i turn to hear my bad.
just as well as to give me a pat.
...

I Saw yongjun at the mrt station just now..whoa. he was handsomely dressed seh! (wonder where he was heading to) =P
and then was watching part of the basketball pol-ite matches.
jan jan said number 3 and number 10 of NP is cute. hahaas.
i think TP's number 9 is cuter laa. looks abit like madd's rainbow.and her rainbow smiled at me today! like anyhow laa. >.<" and
madd got her eyes on some grey pants white shirt guy. so RANDOM la she.Lol.I wonder what happened to her brian eye candy. madd, u're supposed to remain faithful to your eye candy! hahaa.

anyway, to mr piggy,
thanks once again for the newest addition to the hairband family. =) and its green!
and for sending me home at the expense of your time. =)

gosh. i really cmi alrdy. i need my sleep. oh goodness. 2am. rawr. bedtime. goodnite. sweetdreams to my dearest friends. bored souls can come to the library to find me during your breaks! =)

quote of the day: sometimes, its better not to think. what you dont think about wouldnt hurt you. just smile the days through.worry free. =) afterall, the happiest people i see are those not blessed with the ability to think rationally. they seem to smile all day long. haha.

<3.

PM came to visit yesterday~
like wow, my school is finally officially opened after a year since we started using the woodlands campus.
thought it would be a real drag to go for the Jump event, but surprisingly it was ok.
Managed to kop the orange shirt from SIT when no one was looking. but it was small size though. darn. thank goodness I could fit in it, though well, it looked quite small on me.
the only minus point was having to keep blowing up the clappers back to the original shape for everyone, especially someone who had a lousy green one. sound familiar? LOL. but anyway, thanks for the 2 balloons! haha. =)
And stop making me into sour skittles pleaseeeeeee~~~! later i turn to warheads then you know ahh. =(

perng ceat wanted to greet the PM liddat. "Hey PM, i am AM!" hahas. classic.
so tired...slept at 1.25am. wake up 9.35am. First time in a long while since i had at least 5 hours of sleep sia. but woke up early to study for UT tmr. I need the A grades for all the 4th UT. that is the only way to pull my GPA up. I need at least 2 modules overall A please.

gtg study abit already. Asean cup rehearsal later. helpers get paid! wheee. gotta get out by 11.25am for a simpsons movie with a couple of vballers later. arghh. 1 hour to study. dieded. no sleep again tonight. yum yum. i love cornflakes. hahaa. but i am not a pigggg! =x
and dumbdumb? it didnt lessen laaa. =) <3

*-Melissa Ng. :]
*-090188
*-Capricorn.
*-Republic poly-Biotechnology. Year 3.
*-standing at a mere 163 cm. :|

LOVES
*-winter holidays
*-teddies
*-romance
*-the one who can make me smile. :]
*-colors: green, pink, blue
*-pumps [:
*-watching stars by the beach
*-donuts!
*-pretty stuffs
*-music. its my life.
*-sweet memories
*-to be loved and to love
*-beach volleyball
*-those havaianas slippers
*-NUM wear
*-puppies
*-hamsters
*-ice-skatingg
*-pretty earrings

HATES
*-cockroaches! EWWW.
*-jerks
*-ghosts :|
*-being heartbroken
*-people who make me cry
*-cocky people
*-backstabbers.

WANTS
*-that YOU
*-everything for my family
*-everything for my friends
*-to stay happy everyday
*-to slim down
*-to be pampered

Madd
Rena
Janjan
Ah ma
Sissy donkey
mr.lion kai
felicia
Junguang
Sueann
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Shuhui
Jiehui
Jasmine

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As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
Til the end of time forever
You’re the only love I’ll need

In my life you’re all that matters
In my eyes the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You’re the one that’s there for me

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you

Imagine me without you
I’d be lost and so confused
I wouldn’t last a day, I’d be afraid
Without you there to see me through

Imagine me without you
Lord, you know it’s just impossible
Because of you, it’s all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can’t imagine me without you

When you caught me I was falling
You’re love lifted me back on my feet
It was like you heard me calling
And you rush to set me free

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you
I can’t imagine me without you