its the sun and the flower.
and the colours of the rainbow.
these are some of the things i love. <3



I am just like the sun and you the flower. I’ll provide sunlight for you to blossom. Sometimes, clouds will prevent me from reaching you. But you’ll know that I’m always trying to reach you. Just wait for the clouds to clear if you can’t receive my sunlight (:

diarrhoea....
3 times le lo..still counting.
stupid gastric.
its not like i didnt eat regularly what.
good lo, liddat can lose weight.

bought a new wallet from wallet shop yesterday. cause mine spoilt ler.
its black,pink,purple,and green! (: heard its by some local designer. myuk or smth. dunno. nvr heard of it though. but my lil sis seems to know. (sisters...)

feeling happier today even though my stomach feels like crap.
sometimes, it better not to think all the negative stuffs and only focus on the positive.
so well, i've learnt to see things on a more positive scale.
thank you for caring so much. (:
and you better take care of your knees laaa. aiyo.
next destination: vivo sky garden. haha.i'll rmb that.

went kim gary cafe for lunch today.
he went there for dinner. lol.
so qiao.
ate the korean noodles with egg and beef...honestly speaking, it tasted like magi mee, not nice de.
and drank longan with aloe vera.
but diarrhoea-ed out everything anyway.

yongjun! i want the real cookie ice cream! stop sending me all the pictures only..pictures cannot eat de! =(

watched hana kimi-japan de, the whole of tdy...the sano very cute! =p mizuki too though. i used to love the manga so much in sec sch. hanazakari no kimi tachi e. still got the whole series in my bedroom cupboard. hahas.

things to do:
- bathe
- write log book (finally bought a notebook to write in)
- take medicine
- sleep early, if not someone will nag =p

stomach hurts.
hate my stomach. grr. zzz.

song playing on itunes: Ocean Ou De Yang- 一人一半

another new day.
but funny thing is, i dont feel really refreshed.
on the contrary, i felt so tired.
so tired i actually fell asleep on his shoulders.
thanks for lending them to me.

i'm so confused.
its like nothing's changed.
just that there's 2 more confused souls now.
i asked for a limit of one week to think things through..
and i really feel lost.
i keep thinking, maybe well, if i walked away now,
maybe i'd be forgotten. and well, maybe someone will be happier.
arghh. i feel so conflicted...
i need to find something that'll help me confirm my feelings or what i wanna do. my heart tells me one thing, my mind tells me another. sigh.

glad that i could actually speak my mind and not hide my emotions for once with you over the phone. i'm glad you spoke your mind too. i'm sorry. just give me a little more time kkies.

and my best friend ps-ed me, at a time where i didnt wanna be left alone. at a time i needed someone to sound me out.
ha ha. thanks for being there to catch me. really. i cant appreciate it more. friends.

and yongjun, thanks for the chocolates that you brought for the haematology team.
white chocolates still taste better. ha.

gotta go bathe. 12am. haha. later get flu = good game le. feeling so tired. )':

i feel so lost.
seriously dunno what to do.
what should I do?
i guess i need some time to think things over bahs.
part of me wants to give in, the other part tells me its stupid to.

training was kinda slack tdy. and jiao lian seemed to be in a good mood. played on the same team as dumbdumb. so watched him spike and all lo. i wanna receive balls like him la. so.. our team was the shorty team. except bobby and jiao lian who were so darn tall.zz

fell on my same blue black again. double black le. haha.
but everyone told me i looked so lost so blur today.
all asked me to cheer up.
some wanna give me chocolates somemore. haha.
thanks peeps. mel will smile de. (:

partner asked mel to jiayous.
mel is very very confused.

anyone ever heard of a golden pineapple worth 2.8k. ha ha.

终于决定了。
我们为这份感情挂上休纸符。
永远做对方最好的朋友。

just to make each other smile again.

stupid as it may sound.
even though 2 people may really love each other, it doesnt mean that they must be together.
if not being together will make each side happier, then we ourselves are contented.

thanks for everything you have done.
we shall try our best to make each other smile and be happy now. as more than friends, but less than lovers.

go go jiayou.

these special memories will be kept inside my <3
liangcharosesmetoyouwarmthinmyhandsyanyansandcastlessmrtchallengelovedumbdumbhavaianasslippersthejepalangdessertmadewithlovehugsthatkeyandlocketcadburychocolatemintbasketpiggiesmogumoguoldchangkeemuffinnumber2.

to every other attached soul out there, treasure your other half because you guys are really lucky to have been made for each other. just like junguang and fel. (:

loves.

listening to: fullhouse-I think I; Queen-Love of My life (meteor garden)

PP presentation was like...ok. i dunno. the person before me had really nice poster, and so did the person after me..and my poster looks like shyt compared to theirs. and well, I felt as thought the advisors doubted the genuinity of my report, thus they questioned how i went about interviewing him. and why I profiled him. anyways, dont think i'll fail laa. if not i'll go crazy.

then it was fyp time. at w5. near sports complex. our new venue for G302 project. wheee. at least no more shitified carpark to go to. its just below my block! (:
but do all the sai gang again laa. this time aldrin's in-charge.. but well. I think the ending conclusion would be the same. I'm like so afraid i'm gonna score another stupid C. liddat really bye bye university. anyway, it started pouring and we kinda got wet.my pumps were soaked and well, my feet stank =| gee.

then lunched in school and went out with yongjun, madd and daniel to kbox. daniel said my voice is nice. compliment sia. =p
madd was busy throwing the toasters around too. haha.
then we sang tank's fei ni mo shu...i like the song alot alot..but someone doesnt ): say its noisy somemore. when I sang the song, i recalled what he said la.

down with blocked nose and tight chest the past few nights... worried laa. I have no idea whether its due to training (muscle strain or pull) or not. but then again, how to strain the muscles near your chest. i also never do arm press. super tired. i'm like relieved PP is finally outta my mind, or at least for the time being, and I can stop worrying about FYP too, cause we're finally back on track. but its not just that, i'm always worrying and stressed out..... ): need alot alot of rest.

anyway, some people in my class commented i suddenly looked so girl ytd, even dumbdumb. WHEY! am i really so un-girl or tom boyish before that? is this what you call girly. =|


tmr's training day again. i love vball. but i'm tired. i dunno why i feel so tired these days. and everyone asked if i went out ytd..yeah, with daniel and madd to heeren and ate pepper lunch for dinner, nowhere else. no one else le laaa. ):

going to bed once i say gdnite to him. (:
cant tahan le.

mel's all cheered up.
thanks dear. hahas <3 (:
thanks for that really nice presents and the little basket pigs.
he can actually draw! (*stunned) =| ahaha.


i used to always look forward to every lantern festival when i was younger, because my mum and dad would always buy me these cute little basket pigs to eat then. And then i'll become such a happy lil' girl. ahahaa. i missed it soo much. but like abit paiseh to buy. so he bought for me. hahaha. =p



cheer up's done, but i got all my old bruises and injury back from training today.
my elbow's swollen again laaa. ):
and my knee's bruised as usual.
when i saw ziping jiao lian and jing hui and coach walk in today...we all groaned. I knew there was alot of rolling to start and end with. and well. it was quite jialat for sii, madd and me.
sii was soo tired. we couldnt breathe after awhile laa..like cant even take in deep breaths. cause we had to get the balls and rotate among us 3 only. sigh. torturous. but fruitful to me i guess.sii's right...i keep rolling backwards. lol.



feeling under the weather again. rahhh.

xiao mo gu, look after your ankle ah.and thanks for more pimples. rawr.
gillian, do warm up properly!
partner jiayou! sii jiayou! (:

end with this really cute comic strip from bitterstickgal:
stickgal and frog prince. (:


omg. 1.03am. i need to sleeeeeep. gtg. nites. (:

i cant concentrate in class.
i cant even finish a full 3 part question in my worksheet.
i'm hungry.
i'm starving.
stomach growling.
i'm not trusted.
dont know what to say le.

mo gu. drink more warm water then not painful le
partner. looking forward to training with u ltr

solitude.

i'm glad thats blown over. (:
like really really really glad ):
hate it when we quarrel.
i think very soon we'd be taking knives and choppers to kill each other. ha ha.

anyway, dumbdumb did something sweet for me!! =p
but i havent gotten it yet though =|
thanks dear. (:
though i'm RAWRING Now. sheesh. i can feel my face burning laa. eeek! >< rawr rawr!
something lesser than 3..omg laa. =| =| =| AHHH! mel's poor face!! =x =x

went velocity for lunch today. and i saw mark, edwin (referee), zhiyong they all. and np's valerie i think. that really tall center. and i realized how much i missed volleyball. like beach volleyball. i really miss it loads. ): SENTOSA, WEDNESDAY. anyone?? (:

madd and wilson signed up on the list le. hahas. not marriage list. but going sentosa list. dont get me wrong =p hehe.madd's gonna kill me. =p

dumbdumb still hates me, i guess.
seeing the way he replied.
darn. ):
and the heart's still gone.
its just not mel's day too.

finally done with freaking PP poster.
it'd better give me a better grade unlike FYP, even though PP grades arent counted, but they are still reflected in my cert. so it'd better be worth it. RAH.

mel doesnt like to socialize outside her circle of friends, especially when there are girls in the group. I'm like afraid of them cause of my experience in my girls school in sec 3 laa. kanna bullied like crap. so i'm naturally more apprehensive of girls than guys. i cant help it.. sigh. but i promised. and i feel really bad about today. mel mel, jiayou bah.. keep your word. and its you who let someone down. not the other way round.
);

mo gu, i'll be waiting for your candies.(:

i made my dumbdumb upset again.
and i'm so upset tooo
torn.
one is my responsibility to finish PP poster by today.
the other is my wanting to just lie to my parents and go out.
i'm such a failure. gosh.
i hate you PP!
i hate you legs! )':
it's the first. first. first.
and i cant go out.
zzz.
dont go offline please. ):

i better go finish my screwed up PP poster.
and by today.
so that i dont disappoint dumbdumb again tmr.
i promised.
though i dont think i'll be a good teacher, i'll try my bestest to teach lil kids tmr. haha.
and i'll have a good laugh after that. heehee.

hope you're not sick already.

PP poster. chiong arh! T_T
HATE RP!

LEE SHU HUI. YOU'RE MINCED MEAT. MEL HATES YOUU!! RAWR!
thanks for tricking and bluffing me and madd to run 4.8km ah!!
use coach's name somemore!
make me so guilty.
my legs are positively breaking now )':
cannot walk properly le laa.
someone dial 911.
rawr.

LEE SHU HUI. LEE SHU HUI.you made me break my record laa. i never ran so much in my life! =|

anyway. YAY! it's 1 1 1 1 1! finally~ (:
its a sunny yellow dumbdumbdumb day.
thanks and thanks for everything.
<3

wow.
i'm worth exactly $2,329,060.
hahaaa. took this quiz from a website.
not bad eh..so...

who wanna buy me? hahaa. must gimme 2,329,060 dollars hor!
and the quiz is US i think. so must give US dollar.
or better UK pounds. haahaha. =p

i so late havent sleep.
gonna get murdered tmr. >.<
meeting madd for pepper lunch (lunch)!

2 more days to go.

i dunno what to blog about today.
mel breaks record. didnt maple for a whole day.
didnt feel like it anyway.
there's training tmr.
gym training.
i suddenly like lost my motivation in training again.
i love vball...but..

i like the song in fel's blog alot!
its like super sweet laaa. hahaa.

i think i ate alot today. =|
got to watch 3 days of 7pm show in a row. haha. i wanna watch the last 2 episodes! but gonna miss tmr's ):

and my dad asked me over dinner today "he ta fen shou le ah?"
scare me sia. he was joking because he was so stunned to see me back home for dinner 3 days in a row. my sis and bro all stared at me. zzz. i know my dad. he'd nvr use this tone if he really knew.

dumbdumb take care please. dont fall sicker hor. )=

worried.
super duper.
mrdumbdumb.
you're always sick.
take care please. ):
and that means no fried stuffs, no oily stuffs, no heaty stuffs.
more water, more liang cha and more rest.
violation of rule = penalty ah! =P

i just wished we'd have more in common. ):
finding common ground. sighh.

<3 ):

(: mapleeee mapleeee~ with the ever slow dumbster. haha.

my parents were kinda shock the past 2 days, cause its been some while since i reach home at 5+ pm and go over to my grandma's for dinner. but I have been reaching home before 6pm these past 2 days. my parents were pretty shocked. haha. but thats cause i havent been feeling too good the past 2 days laa. not that big an appetite, and diarrhoea-ing and headaches. zzz. but honestly, today i'm home early cause madd ps laa. ): so he walked to mrt with me and take train to j.e. with me. rawr.

wanna go out and get somethingg.
my mind's still pretty jumbled and messed up. coupled up with headaches = argh.

GMP class was fun only because I had my old classmates in class today! missed them alot. miss our chalet even more. ):
sueann, hope your stomach's feeling better alrdy~
sherline, hope you're feeling better too. smile. (:
yikai lion, every one is wanted on this earth. including you. cheer up kk...our class wants you. and stop falling asleep in class. haha. =p
sophia, thanks for hearing me out. i hope our classmates cheer up soon.
junguang, thanks for the meaningful story, will keep that in mind. AND please rmb to bring yr charger next time!
rendall, KOH WEI REN. very funny hor? ask me buy you sandwich nvr say thank you.
shaun, cheer up too! and lend me the maple staff leh!!! rmb roll stats for jg.
fel, you're missed in class today! ): how was piano exam?
and to the lovey dovey couple, happy first month! (: everyone go see the CHEESY message on junguang's blog. Lol. gonna read about yr special date tdy. faster update. haha.

still having the runs.. 2 and counting for tdy. total count: 5! i think thats cause i was hungry upon coming home, and i ate the sotong thingy from old chang kee and a durian puff in the fridge..in trouble. =| jialat laaa. dumb stomach.

dumbster went out with his mr gay friend to np and havent reached home. rawr.
tired. tired. just 2 days of school nia and i look haggard again...

shall end with a quote from sophia's nick
" Every minute of sadness, takes away 60 seconds of happiness. So just be happy." (:

he bought me havaianas slippers! (:
red ones. just like his. gonna wear them to school tmr (if my stomach gets better)

took part with him, wilson and madd in the SMRT challenge today. participated in the ultimate group A category, and well, to be honest, it was quite fun...though we won nothing in the end. but we completed 7 out of 8 stations, which to us is a great achievement. we figured out 7 out of 8 of the clues correctly. woohoo. i figured out ang mo kio and dover and novena and bukit panjang! =D
bought green tea muffin to eat on the way. he treated us 3 laa. aiyo.
first stop was novena, where we had to find california fitness at velocity and do something related to safety while excercising on the gym ball.
then we went to the next stop, ang mo kio, which was quite..well. they gave us a wrong piece of puzzle.ZZZ. and we stood there trying to decipher it, not including the fact that we ran the whole of amk hub to find the man. so tiring. and I saw Junguang! stunned laa. the deciphering took too long, so we ended up bringing that station's challenge paper along to decipher on the way to yishun.
We had to locate SAFRA yishun. and then me and madd got a chance to hold air rifles again! ahaha. just that there wasnt any criteria, so i anyhow shoot, without specs. lol. miss those ijc air rifle days. and my stomach started feeling weird upon eating the green tea muffin on the way back to yishun station.
then next stop was hmm...i cant remember, but i think it was kranji, where we saw volleyballs (we were so happy when we thought it had something to do with playing volleyball, but they bluffed us laaa. we had to transport volleyballs for a distance, without using hands.
next was bukit panjang. that station crappy laa.do star jumps to answer questions. wilson did push ups, madd did sit ups, he did squats. lol.
then 20 toh tuck avenue, where SMRT depot was. he had a chance to run through a train with 24 cabins. not bad seh. ahahaa. and i just sat there while i continue to decipher and unscramble the words to form sentences for the ang mo kio station one.
then dover! SP is like FREAKING big laa. we had to go all the way to the sports hall, which was like...we didnt even have the energy to run all the way there already. zzz. and the clues for "yio chu kang station"slip was like...ohmytian. almost unseenable. lol.
that about sums up all our stops. haha. it was nevertheless, a really fun experience. miss it. havent had fun since yr 1. =p

stomach hurts...rah. i think it has to be the machiam raw egg in my cheese omelette noodle from takashimaya...it hurt quite badly. my goose pimples were like.. -_-" and i feel like puking. great. i hope i can make it to school tmr..at least the po chai pills lessen the pain by quite alot already.

stomach painnnnn~~~jialat la. i think round 3's coming.
i hate my stomach.
ALOT.

randoming: i suddenly like jay chou alot. haha.

& dumbdumb. thanks for taking care of me today (:

back from chalet.
and my present from coming back from chalet = stomach cramps.
heng not during chalet.

chalet was fun and a couple of eventful things happened.
first nite was bbq night and getting drunk night. and well...i should say i found out many things about my classmates and shared alot of my own frustrations and unhappiness with them. when i saw some of them cry, i couldnt help it too. normally everyone looked so cheerful and all, and then i learnt about all the sadness that many of them kept within themselves. and i cried along with them. yikai,me,sherline and sueann's bf were the only ones who were still half sane then. and we had to help handle the rest and quieten them down and ferry them to the toilet and up and down the stairs. then when we finally got drunk shaun to sleep, sophia sobered up. and so me, sophia and yikai were left with the matresses downstairs so we 3 capricornians chatted till 4+am before we finally decided our heads couldnt take it anymore. haha.
but i learnt alot of new things.

2nd day. everyone woke up at 10am i think.cant really rmb. and some went swimming. except for me, yikai and sophia and sherline who finally had the room to ourselves to sleep. haha. so we stayed behind.
then off for lunch at foodcourt, and i saw june!
then after that was basketball at arcade session. 8 of us, 4 pairs. i paired up with yikai, abd we got the highest! hahaha. mel is pro what. hor hor? ahaha. 300 points! =p
then 4 of them went to borrow mahjong table. me, yikai and the lovey dovey couple went cycling instead. haha. ended up fel didnt really know how to cycle, so jg was busy teaching her. then me and yikai went for a spin...i didnt realized that there was a horse ranch at pasir ris park! cycled past aloha loyang..and realized we were so near yet so far...cause I only realized the distanct after someone booked out alrdy ):
then found the couple at the playground, and we were busy being kids again. ahaha.
had fun climbing the robes and playing the cables and slides. ahaha =p
then while the couple were busy honeymooning at the playground, yikai and I started talking about the r/s we were in again, like good old friends. guess we both were in the same situation. aiyah. dont listen to mel's crap already.
saw yongjun and his gf too! they were like staying beside us. ahaha. and yongjun bbq food for us without any of it being burnt. everyone was like awed. ahahaa. thanks next sem classmate. =p

gonna miss this bunch of peeps alot.. ):
mel dont wanna talk alrdy. miss maple. bubye! shall update another day.

loved. (:

and i am running late!
set my alarm clock at 10am.
woke up at 1145am. i'm a genius.
gotta meet shaun at pasir ris at 230.
oh man.
havent packed.
feeling sooo lazy.
still gotta cook my own lunch. rawr.
gotta run.

ewww. my blister's....jelly. errr yucks. argh!
eww eww eww eww ewwwww~! i gotta go chalet liddat -_-"

janjan partner and sii, enjoy your trip! (:
catch eels for me to eat. ahaha. =p

been a couple of days since i blogged again.
well, partner asked me a question today. and i'm not sure how to answer either. whats the status? beats me.

thanks for treating me to lunch again today.
and for the old chang kee squidheads (: (shared it with some people though =|)
been 12 days since we last met. not bad eh.

and then. mel is forgotten again -_-"
so much for being a drug huh.
terribly. terribly annoyed.
RAWR. zzz. nothing to say already.
it makes me ponder.

maple pq got me so addicted these couple of days.
just keep pqing and pqing until all my pimples started to pop cause i've been sleeping quite late. argh. but well, its more fun when i dont play it alone.
and so, its lvl 31~! no more pq-ing till lvl 35. yay~ ):

chalet's tmr.cant wait.but there's only 8 of us. sigh. thats how on my current class is anyway. and next sem, i am gonna be split into 3 different classes for 3 different days again. sigh. i am so gonna miss my class. ):

big big big blister on my feet. grrr. my new pumps killed me in the mere 8 minutes i took to walk to tiong bahru today. and i ended up having to go get plasters. and it does hurt quite annoyingly!!

dont feel like talking already.

went for steamboat at bugis with madd and shu ytd.
haha. girls night out. not bad. been some time since we did that.
then we walked to suntec's sky garden and there was this really beautiful podium filled with flowers and a small fountain. its like so fairytale! and the warm lights made it look even nicer. (:
actually we went there for yami yoghurt, however, the stall only had raspberry and lemon lime flavors left, none of which, is my favourite peach ): awww.
and then we went to mini toons, and well, shu tempted us to buy pick and mix =|, but the paper bag was so cute! there was like this adorable octopus on it. (urgh. wanted to put a photo of it but my bluetooth device on my lappy has some problem.) but i think the old penguin picture was cuter =x and and and...i saw the blue mickey car box that... ahaha. madd was laughing when i told her about it. =XX

maple is fun when it comes to pq...but the quest just keeps pilling up! arghh.
still busy fighting the mushrooms. rawr!
dad bought me my 80gb harddisk from comex. though i wanted a 160gb one ): ahh. now i can put half the shows and games in ):

my left waist...the injury i got from training 3 weeks-1month ago..there's a bump there now that wouldnt go away. and i cant even sleep on it without it feeling weird or hurting. oh mann. i hope nothing's wrong with the boneee. dieded. how how how. ):

mel is very very hungry cause i skipped breakfast. someone feeed meeeeeee~ ahahaa.
mum and dad's calling. gotta go.

hope jan jan and rena's having fun in genting. (:

dear people, semester 1 results are out ):

the world would be a better place if no one compared with one another.
why compare?

stomachacheeeeee~ ):
ankle pain.
training ltr. hope we dont need to roll today. *cross fingers*

didnt get about to playing maple ytd.madd logged on so late and well...someone wanted to give me a surprise by coming online, but ended up...disappointed instead. looks like my explanation wouldnt be taken in consideration as well.

yay! my first donut factory donuts! thanks sissy donkey~! (:
was like stunned laa. honestly i only wanted one. no wonder it took you so long to join us for dinner. busy queueing sia, still say faci drive slowly. =| thanks for cheering me up! and the korean food was nice. next time try the spicy chicken. (:

went millenia walk to eat and then to mc cafe at marina and then to esplanade. wah. that side really famous for couples laa. madd and I were walking around while waiting, and i realized that there are really more and more gay couples out there now. oh man. whats wrong. the mannerism scares me and madd a lot. =| and then wads up with purple and green skinny jeans? ewww. they dont seem to go with anything much. =\

ahhh. i feel so much better now...came home just now, and someone held the gate for me. so paiseh. then hold lift door somemore. and just kept staring in the lift. lol. not bad, i have neighbours who are gentlemen. =p

gonna Maplee now. change hairstyle time! give me nice hairstyle. got hair coupons for madd and dumbdumb too(if he comes online.apparently watching show). *cross fingers* =p

eyes so tired ler. nvmind. shall chiong ace wo nerae too! episode 8 le! fighto! C:

i'm glad some things were sorted out.
back to the start. whatever happens. happens.

breakfast: 4 saltine biscuits.
lunch: half a bowl of porridge and an apple. i think i can become some skinny model if i carry on like this. ahaha. ytd nite also eat so lil. not bad! but think i'm going out with sissy donkey and madd madd ltr. and they wanna eat... STEAMBOAT. whee. my golden long mushrooms! =D

nuak was trying to cheer me up today. saying what i posted was right on the nail abt how he felt. well. jiayou kkies. i know sometimes these things get really tiring..and its fine to take a break once in awhile. i know how you feel. wednesday then decide kkies. ahahaa. responsibilities.

watching ace wo nerae. nice sia. too bad i dont really have the passion for tennis. wanna learn it only as a skill for widening my circle of friends in the future. in it, there's ueto aya! and my fav. morikawa! both starred in attack no.1, which i loved, cause its gotta do with volleyball =D.

ah ma. thanks for those encouraging words. (: sun nu loves ah ma. ahaha. now is, 走一步, 算一步. whatever will be shall be. (: dang. i cant type chinese characters man. had to resort to using baidu to convert for me. rawrness.

my eyes has pretty eyeliner smoky effect again man...natural makeup. lols.

as for you, smile. lets make it an effort to smile and be happy. that way we'd be less miserable and more happy. hahas. pig. (:

i wanna do better in vball. but i dont understand. i keep spiking sideways. and coach was like asking me how many times he gotta put it across to me. its top and not side contact..but the thing is..i also dunno why my hand is liddat! urgh! darn it. ): how. someone help me. rawr.

2 weeks to decide.
to stay or to go. for good this time.
guess thats what i need.

oh man. i'm hungry again...2 sausages and 3 pieces of saltine biscuit kept me full for 4+ hours.wah. not bad. =o

shall meet madd and sissy donkey at tampines mall for dinner tmr.thanks for cheering me up guys. (:

its over.
ha ha. i had a hurricane-ish time.
and its over.
yups.
end of the sidewalk.
its ok. mel always walks alone.
people come. people go.

what a good second entry for my new blog post.
well. i've had fun while it lasted.
bye.
thanks for every little thing.
bye.

and now i have no reservations about going aussie to study.
no reservations about making new friends.
no need to worry.
i'm a free bird again. the carefree cloud.
oh yayyy.

no wonder people say. its better to hate than to love sometimes.
this is the first time i agree with that.

finally changed my blog layout.
took me the whole of today to do it laaa.
well. i had nowhere to go anywhere, with it raining and with no one to go out with. i need to re-broaden my circle of friends.
and well. i know the song and lyrics in my blog dont match, but i love these songs.
each has a special meaning to me. (:

well. havent been in the best of moods lately...
and in the train today, i overheard 2 guys talking loudly about 2 of the things that bothered me. and they had to hit right on the nail. right on my pain. great.

talked to xiao mo gu this morning.
and she knows how i feel.least someone does.
i mean, how many times can i tell a person something? like something that makes me feel so thick skinned sometimes. i am at a lost already.

missed but not missed.
i dont wanna be intiative no more. tired, i am. i really dont...i shall just take the back seat. whatever will be will be. i honestly dont expect anymore.
no more hopes.mel is a happier girl that way. (:

molly, alex and I met at j.e. to go for training today. and we started talking about aussie university. seeing how my grades dipped thanks to FYP, i know i have to start considering all these. well...thats how i chose my life to be. Living in regrets for not studying in sec 4. Having regretted going to RP instead of business courses in other polys. the only thing i feel i didnt regret going to RP for, are the friends and the vball team. they made my life alot different. a lot happier. thanks peeps. u're the reason i enjoy my rp life. (:

and friends that havent even bothered to just leave me a note to whether u're turning up for training, thanks alot. a msg was all thats needed.
take care. nevermind. i am mel.independence.

shall stop thinking about all the crap that i've been thinking.
as ah ma always reinstate, simplicity's the best.
yups.
off to maple alone. anyone in maple cassopeia world. add me. dumbch0co.

sobs.
i feel so so upset about fyp.
i mean.
i put in the effort and i got the same grade as someone who was missing for most of our meetings and feedings. for someone who can smoke her way through presentation.
so many months of work. all boils down to that.
i'm really really feeling the pain.
its not jealousy
its not disappointment.
its just...everyone did better than me.
i havent really felt what being bottom of the table is.
a chat with yong jun on msn left me feeling even worse.
i feel like giving up on this project and starting again next yr.
at least i wouldnt get a screwed up one.
why why why. why must things be like this.
mel, stop the tears.
stupid girl.

rena good luck for the match tmr. ace it! i have faith in xiao mo gu (:

dumbdumb's not replying.
asleep alrdy i guess.
sleepyhead.
nite nite. (:

i need the break from all these stress too. i got pretty eyes stitch for company.
dont think. dont think. dont think.

worried.

havent been blogging for a couple of days. trying to make my new blog layout but its pretty screwed. so updates for the past 3 days or so...

was feeling well on wednesday so skipped training and went to the airport to fetch my dad instead. felt really really drained of energy. and that kinda feeling was scary.

thursday.
thank you for the drink. though it was really really bitter.
thanks for the sweets that came along with it too.
thanks for being such a sweetie (:
and sorry it wasnt as tasty. =|
went IT fair. and well. i tried using my sub-card to sign NETS. and well. i made a pretty embarassing situation outta myself. cause well, my mum didnt activate any NETS pin for my card...so hmm..i couldnt pay. i felt like melting right there.

friday.
PP approved! presentation on 26 september at 0920.
hmm. stayed home whole day. as in literally man. parents had some company dinner so i stayed home too.
should have gone comex fair with jan jan, rena and dumbdumb.darn it. ):
playing maple (:
dumbjelly! =p

today:
feeling giddy again.
fyp grades came out.
its screwed. very very screwed.
and whats wrong with her today?
why is she giving me all that attitude.zzz.
whats the problem.
is sharing a grade even that hard.
i already got a C. the worst grade ever.
how much worse can u do.
my gpa fell. fell a hefty 0.05.
i'm even further from my goal now.
all thanks to @#%&$ screwed up fyp.

i am very upset over it. when i saw my grades, i almost cried...its like..imagine putting 6 months of effort and 25 pages of report writing and ponning school to finish up the posters and freaking out for the presentation, all for the eventual grade of C. a big big C. i dont deserve it. i really dont. )':
i dont wanna do my project anymore. its so screwed up. the facs cant even agree with one another. and its so SEG based that all the SAS facs are giving my team a doubtful eye. i've had enough. its really very stressful. sobs.
jiayou. i.. have to buck up. i..have to.

dumbdumb's sounding lil' weird today.
worried. ):
sigh. since when did i become some naggy old ah ma (like ah ma =p).
but congrats. at least your gpa improved by 0.18. proud of you (:
i believe you can do even better. jiayouu.

watching ace no nerae. ueto aya! maybe i shouldnt have given up on tennis. but hmm..i suck at it. like really really. i am hopeless at it. =|

so missed. ):

*-Melissa Ng. :]
*-090188
*-Capricorn.
*-Republic poly-Biotechnology. Year 3.
*-standing at a mere 163 cm. :|

LOVES
*-winter holidays
*-teddies
*-romance
*-the one who can make me smile. :]
*-colors: green, pink, blue
*-pumps [:
*-watching stars by the beach
*-donuts!
*-pretty stuffs
*-music. its my life.
*-sweet memories
*-to be loved and to love
*-beach volleyball
*-those havaianas slippers
*-NUM wear
*-puppies
*-hamsters
*-ice-skatingg
*-pretty earrings

HATES
*-cockroaches! EWWW.
*-jerks
*-ghosts :|
*-being heartbroken
*-people who make me cry
*-cocky people
*-backstabbers.

WANTS
*-that YOU
*-everything for my family
*-everything for my friends
*-to stay happy everyday
*-to slim down
*-to be pampered

Madd
Rena
Janjan
Ah ma
Sissy donkey
mr.lion kai
felicia
Junguang
Sueann
Gillian
Shuhui
Jiehui
Jasmine

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As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
Til the end of time forever
You’re the only love I’ll need

In my life you’re all that matters
In my eyes the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You’re the one that’s there for me

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you

Imagine me without you
I’d be lost and so confused
I wouldn’t last a day, I’d be afraid
Without you there to see me through

Imagine me without you
Lord, you know it’s just impossible
Because of you, it’s all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can’t imagine me without you

When you caught me I was falling
You’re love lifted me back on my feet
It was like you heard me calling
And you rush to set me free

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you
I can’t imagine me without you