its the sun and the flower.
and the colours of the rainbow.
these are some of the things i love. <3



I am just like the sun and you the flower. I’ll provide sunlight for you to blossom. Sometimes, clouds will prevent me from reaching you. But you’ll know that I’m always trying to reach you. Just wait for the clouds to clear if you can’t receive my sunlight (:

maybe. just maybe its for the best?
till we're sure.
i'll always be there. (:

my christmas wishlist! :
1) play with whistling sparklers at night by the beach
2) to see snow
3) for everyone to wear that reindeer hairband and walk arnd together. haha
4) a huge huggable cute looking teddy bear
5) those snowglobes that look so magically enchanting
6) star necklace
7) for everyone to be happy and healthy (:
8) nice new bag thats not auntie (thanks ah coach)

i'll add more when i think of it..

in the meanwhile. goodnite!
nite sweetie. hahaha.

kept dozing off in class today,
but kept awake because eng yong yong's was so near to me!
went to school earlier today to stop getting C's, so i went to kop yikai's table or so he calls feng shui wei. =| hopefully i can get a better grade today bah. sigh.
I need the grades.
My dad came to talk to me today regarding overseas universities again.
I cant handle some stuffs anymore.
Its like one part of my life is functioning this way, the other part is functioning another way.
junguang says i look super stone and sian and tired in class nowadays. darn it. whats wrong with me. where's bubbly mel!!!

went out with baby today.
molly walked with us to mrt station.
then pasar malam! bought my keropok tasting thingy...but. it created this really horrid smell in my bag sia. shitts. it stank my jacket and charger and everything. urgh.
then walked from HMV to That CD shop in paragon then to Takashimaya and then to Wisma Atria.
reminisced the first time we walked that path down orchard. actually it didnt even cross my mind until he mentioned it. haha. =x the only difference is that its filled with christmas lights now.
were being childish throwing popcorn chicken into each other's cups too. (yeah. my leftovers) haha.

alot of things happened the past week. yeah. including breaking and a good crying session and now i dunno what status. haha. this is really madness.

bought my first 2 sundresses as well as a pair of shorts from pull and bear at vivo on sunday! =D



(Ignore the mess behind >.<)

Instead of ruldolph the red nose reindeer, here comes melly the swollen eyed reindeer. =( haha.

dang. madd and molly got me hooked to this personality quiz thingy. its like scarily accurate!!! see some of the results i got.
Here is the analysis:

Based on colors, i filled in the people i thought of into various colored boxes and the conclusion is:
The one who will never forget you is rena.
The one who you can consider as your real friend is madeline.
The one you really love is eugene.
This may be your soulmate: hazel.
The one you will remember for the rest of your life is janis.

about my personality:

Here is the analysis:
1.You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

2.You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

3.You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.

4.Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

5.Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

You'll drop everything to be with the partner of your dreams, and you'll give their sentimental presents rather than expensive ones. Nevertheless, your spontaneous nature does have a limit, and when the romance is over, you'll head back to work to pick up the pieces

YOUR LOVE
Are you a very confused person?
Sometimes you like to be left alone.
Sometimes you want to be loved.
Sometimes you need him or her.
Sometimes you don't.
Does it sound familiar?

lol. all like quite scarily true. and i dont know how to say it. but its like... OMG.

ok. i'm just occupying myself here. and appearing offline at the same time so that someone doesnt need to avoid me and come online for one minute then appear offline.
i'll appear offline. you dont need to.

gonna get back to some reading to occupy myself.

enchanted.
really fairytale laa. even more fairy tale than starsdust. i preferred stardust though, because its more 'realistic'.

thanks madd, for pei-ing me and cheering me up.
its been a long time since we 2 had a girls night out.

your silence. tells me everything.
like how much i'm being appreciated at all.

mel, stop computer gaming. get back to your life.
get back to the books you've left untouched for so long.
get back to drawing and playing the piano.

no more frying morning pancakes. gee. i still stink. time to get a bath.

5 facts I learned today:
- Mo gu loves shitake mushrooms
- enchanted is a lame show yet everyone likes it because its fairytale
- love hurts
- never put too much pepper into my creamy chicken or my stomach suffers
- sometimes, to tell yourself not to think, makes you think more. thats why enemies usually end up falling in love with each other. haha. cliche'

please be back home safely. ='(
i wish i was at the reservoir too.
i wish i could really teleport anywhere i like, so that i could be there.

havent been doing anything right today.
first, went out with a mismatch of clothes.
next, played maple alone and stoned and almost died thrice.
thirdly, scolded my sister for saying she doesnt like him and say its my choice, not hers.
and then, mind was lost in a train of thoughts, i bathed with my earrings on.

maybe at the start, some things dont mean as much to me.
but as time goes on, i start getting more grown and attached to these things unknowingly.
when they smile, i smile.
and when they hurt, i hurt.
when they leave, i hurt but i give a smile, knowing they'll be leaving for somewhere better.
sometimes, i get into a dilemma, knowing i shouldnt be selfish and only think for myself. knowing that i should do anything to make them feel better and happier.
if its only stress and sadness and a demoralized feeling i give them, i'd rather be the one, to turn my back, and walk away first. because, i feel like i'd been a bitch to them. it shows that, maybe..maybe it's someone or something who love them more that they need.

time and again, i've tried, to feel like a rock, so as not to feel anything. to be heartless. i tell myself to rationalize things. to let something go pursue its true happiness. its like keeping a pet. when i see my pet turtle looking gloomy and sad all day, i'd rather release it into the wild, to join the other turtle friends and be happier.
dunno. i dunno what to do. turtle, what do you want me to do? continue to keep you in that tank, or set you free to swim in the pond by the park?
turtle, oh turtle. am i such a horrid owner. )=

giddy.
block nose.
urgh.
this shows how well i take care of myself. haha

gossip girls is my new english show. the only minus point is that cho chang's in there.
xlxl, its gossip girl.

quote of the day?
never simply use the word 'most', because thats usually not true.
i know i shouldnt be feeling like saddened, but i cant help it.
you got that responsibility. you gotta go.
but all i wished was that, you didnt give false hopes.
its ok. i'm going with my siblings then. maybe i should get my own.
dont be in a dilemma. you've got your duties to fulfil.

studying for gmp ut. think i'm gonna flunk it anyway. no mood to go buy crabs too.

i heard about that professional actress who shed crocodile tears to try and save her own skin yesterday. backstabbing me and yongjun in the process. she said i was sarcastic. lol. like HELLOOOO. she comes for 2 meetings. and disappear for the rest. and she didnt even help the whole of trial one.
she didnt even bother asking if there were meetings until the day itself (and mind you, used it as an excuse not to turn up), and asking if there were meeting weeks ago, acting ignorant and pretending no one bloody sent her messages. the point is, why do we even have to send messages to one who sents excuses like she's been in an accident (and i saw her the next day with 2 legs and 2 hands left still, and no bandages in sight), been sick (see her the next day with her boyfriend, looking perfectly fine), overslept (what kinda shit excuse is that), in school for talk (like hello, we are having meeting and you're going for a talk?)WOW, and not even replying at all?? and the best excuse ever? THE TEAM DIDNT SEND ME ANYTHING. if you were responsible enough. you would have asked. honestly, we dont even need a redundant and backstabbing member like you. do know that its now 4 against 1. may the good triumph.
and yeah, just in case you didnt know. it was about you, JOANNE ISSAC.

no point bursting a blood vessel and ruining my day more with regards to sucha bitch.
you wanna see girl's school bitchiness? i'll show it to you.

enough of ranting. i'll get back to studying. ahhh, feeling much better.

i hate YIP YEAN YEAN!
why cant she tell us that there's lab by word of mouth?
I know sending emails means making use of technology,
but hello, the school mail is so full of junk mails that i dont even check it?!
!@#$#$!@$!@$!
making me skip school twice in 8 lessons. its like oh my tian??
i love this fac so much. my grades are dipping. i'm stressed out. i need to start planning what i need to do after i graduate. i'm severely stressed out. and the least she could do was to tell us by word of mouth there's lab laa!

now i'm alone. alone in class. like someone forlorn looking idiot. sigh.
until 4pm seh. until 4pm. oh great. now i gotta leave this class at 2pm. and go library alone cause that WOMAN's coming back to conduct 3rd meeting in class.

listening to some new english songs i got but some like quite ancient eh.
-> inconsolable-backstreet boys.
-> your guardian angel-red jumpsuit apparatus
-> one boy, one girl-colin raye
-> almost over you-meteor garden soundtrack

rainy day. hate rainy school days. urgh.

thanks yonglee and sijia for coming up to class to pei me for 1 hour. (:

in a relatively foul mood.

so lazy to update...
nothing much happened this week, apart from lotsa mapling with dumbdumb (: and watching my er zuo ju..and OH! wilson, madd and shu came over to my house to play mahjong! haha. OH! and i went to a small kelong via a small boat for FYP trip on wednesday. but well, didnt learn much laa. ended up feeling so giddy floating on stilts and having the waves rock the whole place also.
baby was too busy working to go out with me laaa. and i'm too busy sleeping anyways.
so aww. since tuesday, havent seen him. but thanks for the chocs! <3 (:

bored bored bored. too lazy to study this holiday. my past week grades were like. CCB. no. not a vulgarity! really my 3 days grade in a row--> CCB. great right. and UT? even worse. B+ for GMP, B for Haematology, and C+ for that module i hate most..whats it again? oh yeah. analytical instrumentation. its such a dry and boring module. geez.

read the papers today (dont ask me why.) and i realized there's this new cancer phase II trial going on whereby white blood cells are extracted and interleukins and or smth is re-introduced into these cells and then re-injected into the body & the cancer cells will actually be greatly reduced. interesting. then again, i asked myself why i was interested in looking at those articles..
do i really like the science field? or issit just for general interest?
then why do i aspire to work at raffles place, in a bank there? follow the footsteps of my parents? because i wanna become a career woman?
darn. all these questions. i wish i can answer them myself.

another article. Universities' world ranking for year 2007. found out NUS dropped to 33th, and NTU stands at 61th or issit 69th? harvard, oxford, cambridge and yale are still top 4 anyway. darn. start thinking girl. what are you gonna do after you graduate. sighh. i feel so old already.

and thinking abt these just gets me all stressed out.
oh my tian, 230 already. going to bed.
shall call to chit chat tmr. (:

btw, who can help me look after melbit(rabbit) from 16th dec to 25th dec? cause i'll be in turkey, my maid will go back to indonesia, my grandma's coming with us and my aunty's going back to m'sia. mum and dad want me to give it away. =( HOWWWWW.

crampscrampscramps.hateit.urgh.

mo gu says she misses me! hehe. =P

will upload pics over the week up soon. if i get less lazy. haha. =x

though we had kinda a tiff, he came to look for me after fyp today (:
and yada yada. i was damn suey all morning laa.
firstly, woke up half an hour late, ate 2 small biscuits, left house.
then i realized i didnt put on earrings. and missed the traffic light, missed the train. and the most saddening thing? i was playing with the new spa fish in the aquaculture enclosure beside my crab tank and well, my handphone was hung around my neck cause i was waiting for SOMEONE to message lo. haha. and i got too excited playing with the fish (it kept swimming away), i stretched out. and "ploop" i accidentally dipped my handphone into the water tank. great. screen blanked out for quite a long while. short circuited. but it miraculously survived! ^^V

then aldrin my fyp advisor (sports nutritionist and conditioner) told me my landing technique when i jump is wrong, and that my knees are gonna spoil soon. he said it should be facing outward and not inwards when i land. then he found the spot the sinseh rubbed and pressed it hard! ohmytian la! now i know why my waist and leg so jialat le. best.
madd's was worse though, aldrin said her back is flat back, which meant her spine is curvey curvey, and so when she jumps and lands on it, it'll cause damage to the brain instead. =| and he massaged molly's ankle. =X

after which, went sentosa with dear.
had lotsa fun. but ate junk food laa.
calabee potato chips, sour cream! and super duper big gulp of ice lemon tea. couldnt finish =|
then watched the sunset. haha
and JUNGUANG AND FEL LOOK!
we re-enacted your sand message at siloso, specially for you guys. happy belated 2nd! wahaha. =P


then we went to see the cute cute puppies at vivo again =D
so happy. but some of them looked so lonely..aww =(
dear fell in love with the toy poodles too. lols.
was checking out hamster and its cage prices.
then when we were walking out, we saw yenkai and another girl walking in. =|
and he saw perng ceat and his gf somewhere downstairs too. lol

anyway, photos! we saw this heart shape cloud floating by. hahaa. and there was this really sweet wedding going on behind us laa. the woman was fat though. and the guy's ang moh. i came to a conclusion that most brides are so fat on their wedding day, thanks to the countless fattening stuffs their bf's fed them while they were dating. haha =p

sophia aka ginny weasley, dont bully me ah! i am armed with my wand too. "vibration!" hahahaaa. =P





its loves.(:

1st November le. happy 22nd (i think) wedding anniversary mummy & daddy! (:

*-Melissa Ng. :]
*-090188
*-Capricorn.
*-Republic poly-Biotechnology. Year 3.
*-standing at a mere 163 cm. :|

LOVES
*-winter holidays
*-teddies
*-romance
*-the one who can make me smile. :]
*-colors: green, pink, blue
*-pumps [:
*-watching stars by the beach
*-donuts!
*-pretty stuffs
*-music. its my life.
*-sweet memories
*-to be loved and to love
*-beach volleyball
*-those havaianas slippers
*-NUM wear
*-puppies
*-hamsters
*-ice-skatingg
*-pretty earrings

HATES
*-cockroaches! EWWW.
*-jerks
*-ghosts :|
*-being heartbroken
*-people who make me cry
*-cocky people
*-backstabbers.

WANTS
*-that YOU
*-everything for my family
*-everything for my friends
*-to stay happy everyday
*-to slim down
*-to be pampered

Madd
Rena
Janjan
Ah ma
Sissy donkey
mr.lion kai
felicia
Junguang
Sueann
Gillian
Shuhui
Jiehui
Jasmine

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As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
Til the end of time forever
You’re the only love I’ll need

In my life you’re all that matters
In my eyes the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You’re the one that’s there for me

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you

Imagine me without you
I’d be lost and so confused
I wouldn’t last a day, I’d be afraid
Without you there to see me through

Imagine me without you
Lord, you know it’s just impossible
Because of you, it’s all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can’t imagine me without you

When you caught me I was falling
You’re love lifted me back on my feet
It was like you heard me calling
And you rush to set me free

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you
I can’t imagine me without you