its the sun and the flower.
and the colours of the rainbow.
these are some of the things i love. <3



I am just like the sun and you the flower. I’ll provide sunlight for you to blossom. Sometimes, clouds will prevent me from reaching you. But you’ll know that I’m always trying to reach you. Just wait for the clouds to clear if you can’t receive my sunlight (:

went east coast yesterday and today. haha. sunshine girl! now chao da le. =|

went east coast with baby ytd. but before that, i tried cooking something different. creamy chicken baked rice! =) it turned out it wasnt salty enough laa.. so bland. should marinate the chicken first. anyway, for anyone who wanna try it out, here's the link:
http://happyhomebaking.blogspot.com/2007/10/baked-rice.html

then we headed for east coast (bedok jetty) to fish. BUT RIGHT, thanks to the damn aunties working at the MRT control stations at tiong bahru and eunos and tanah merah, they totally made us feel like idiots. we went around and around and they kept telling us there's no way to bedok jetty from there. end up there were. -_-" and they we cabbed to the wrong side of east coast park.damn!
so rented bicycles and cycled there. by then, i was in a pretty bad mood. $!#%$!@#$.
then took out our fishing rods and lines, and wheeeee. we caught 27 fishes! tamban and 4 other kinds we dunno. but all pretty small though. hehe. =x Even the lines could catch fishes! =D eug's prawns attracted all the fishes laa.
here's our catch!

urgh. my laptop's bluetooth went haywired again. darn it. will upload the rest another day.

and went east coast today with molly and yongjun to cycle and then roller blade and saw madd and wilson! they went fishing there. haha. by the longkang laa. =|
now my back hurts terribly. down with roller blading~! it sucks big time. urghhhhh.

heard about the head terrorist that escaped from detention barracks today. does this signify that there is a possibility that it could be an insider's help? that someone in the force might be one of them? now my brother's school is so well guarded. and i bet the airport will be too. such incidents inject fear into everyone's blood. its like everyone is worrying endlessly for their loved ones and for their own safety. i hope he gets caught soon, but it seems highly impossible considering the fact that he has been on the run for more than 24hrs. he could be far away from the barracks already, and maybe even in malaysia already, for all we know.
Ous Singapore Armed Forces, jiayou bah.

baby thanks for the handphone chain. love the stars. =) and lol. for the hello kitty sweets. hahaa. =)

till then,
gonna rest my back and play maple and go for interviews with molly tmr. mel shall go and work! ho ho ho.

my 2 favourite songs of the moment:

你最近还好吗-from 斗牛要不要! =D

挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的话
地址写的是心底你能不能收到它
天有点冷风有点大城市宁静而喧哗
这一个冬天我得一个人走回家

问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜褃回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念褃挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出

有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达
旧情人给的问候比陌生人还尴尬
昨天远了明天还长回忆模糊但巨大
这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下

问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜褃回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念褃挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念褃挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

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不想懂得- from 公主小妹! =D

当世界不知不觉的变了
有时候我怀念以前的我
作的梦虽然远远的
想像是一种快乐

拥有了同时也失去什黱
而眷恋原来会带来软弱
你让我在雾里成熟心开始曲折

我不想舍得不想懂得
是谁惹谁言不由衷
说谎伤害都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什黱

我不想舍得不想懂得
谁说割爱才更深刻
彼此依赖是爱不是负荷
能握著手就是感动的

when things are up to mark.. my gpa sucks. and if i cant get into any of the 3 good local universities, (which i doubt i will get in anyway..) my dad's gonna do something to me. sigh. throw me overseas? i think he rather throw me overseas then lemme enter SIM which i rather enter. sigh. i dont wanna think. i dont wanna think. why am i such a lousy student. why cant i be the smarter few and get a gpa of 3.8? sigh.
this stinks. do i get a chance to start afresh in terms of acad?
its like ever since my O'lvls, i've been going downhill..i'm like never proud of the schools i go to. sigh.
#$!%$&%$! hope life gets better soon. dont wanna rot le.

missing everyone alot alot alot.
and him. neh neh. =(

baby skipped work just to accompany me today. so touched. haha. naughty naughty.
happy 6th. how time flies (: though we always quarrel, i'm glad to just have you by my side.

first ate lunch at my house(yeah, i cooked udon with fishballs, egg tofu and preserved veggies. and he got bored of it ='( will try something different next time)
then we were out to explore the new kallang leisure park! but honestly, it was practically a ghost town there laa. there's hardly anyone! but but! there is an ice skating rink (i still think fuji ice palace nicer), an arcade (i won him at basketball and bishi bashi!! hehe), a bowling alley (where we played 2 games and i scored the lowest score ever, cuz i had to use house ball and shoes. urgh!), and then there's a donut shop (dont try the oreo donut. its MESSY and too sweet. ask him. i rubbed off all the chocolate on my hands onto his. HAHA.) and there's this taiwan snow ice shop! wheehee! my milk ice! =D shared one mango milk ice. yum yum!~ and then that's practically about kallang leisure park.
my horrid boring lunch. lol.

then took bus 16 all the way, cause we didnt know where to go. ended up at bukit merah bus int. oh man. so took bus 176(cant rmb) =| to west coast park, sat there chit chat, ate fries, watch sun setting, talked about fishing and my dreams.haha. and then i suggested going to play the rope climbing and crossing the planks at the kids playground. lol. =x and so we climbed..and there was this IRRITATING KID. stupid kid kept yelling non-stop "HAHA. I WIN. U LOSE. I AM THE KING OF THE WORLD. U LOSE! LOUSY. SO SLOW" at me. wth. this kid is honestly the most "I SERIOUSLY WANNA BASH HIM UP" kid i've ever seen so far. whats his prob laa. i climb slowly my problem right. urgh.
but it was so fun to challenge baby at the playground. we might seem childish at first, but alot of couples followed us afterwhich. LOl. =|

mr. incredible bolster, thanks for the wonderful time today. (:
and it's probably another week before i get to see you. =(

next thursday, date with my darling molly girlfriend! =D

photo updates:
last weeks dinner treat from grandma (who won some money in 4D) haha.
baby cousin and my mischief =x
playing tic tac toe with our leftover veggies >.<
making happy face with leftover veggies (my plate)
baby cousin's plate. lol.
angry face (my plate)
baby cousin's angry face. haha. it looks more like some distorted monster to me =|
end of our mischief =p
and finally, ang pao counting! woohoo. this year's feng shou was great! but of course, i banked all the money into my bank account =(
look at my angpaos! =)

tired. signing off. happy 6th +1day. lol. i wish we can always be this happy. =)

went fishing at labrador park with madd madd today.

got her a fishing rod as a bday gift. hahaa. and boy, did we have a hard time trying to fix the bait onto the rod -_-" pricked my finger with the hook and bled. so did madd. haha. so lame. end up one nice man helped us fix.

saw junguang and fel at harborfront! (: and junguang always like to bully pple HOR.

fishing is relaxing at night, but afternoon fishing sucks big time man. chao da le laaa. however night fishing gives me the chills. keep sneeeeezing. urgh. and one stupid fish ate 7 of my baits PLUS hooks and 1 of my weights today. how on earth man.

since mentioning is not appreciated or rather appreciated in the wrong way, no mentioning shall be done. if its not positive that its mentioned here to show its place in my heart, then let it not be here at all.

at the limit of accepting it.

snowglobes have become my favourite thing of the moment. after watching korean drama 'my girl', i like snowglobes even more! =D its like within its glass ball lies its perfect world, snowing beautifully as a pretty melody plays and it lights up too...so nice. darn.

my results...sucked. i dropped below 3.4 le. haha. so sad. i dunnit to go local university le. if my dad doesnt approve of me going SIM, i am gonna be an overseas student ='( rahh!!! if only i had some talent. sigh. if only i had more brains.

i had enough of fishing for the week. too tired. and it needs so much patience and perseverance under the sun that i was halfway to going crazy.plus all the poor fingers that bled and the sudden rain and the heat that gives people a headache, urghh. next stop, bedok jetty with an umbrella. haha.

dont feel so good. i am tired but i am so agitated i cant sleep. urghhhh!~~!!~@~!$*@#%*^%

imagine myself in a snowglobe, with falling snow and warmth. that'll be bliss.

quote of the day: Catfish loves mac donalds burger too.

watched kung fu dunk. it was so unrealistic it should have been titled kung fu dung instead. urghh.
but oh well, achieved my main purpose of being miss nurse. haha.
my primary school best friend came over to my house to bake ytd =) so fun laa. except that i touched the 180 degrees celsius hot tray cause i was like..distracted. -_-" clumsy me as usual. heng no boils. thanks to someone's burn cream.
anyway, missing my darlings so! madd is so jealous i never call her darling, so she's my darling too. and molly girlfriend, and jan jan and rena dearies!
caught chingay today. the fireworks nice, but alot of the falling particles got into my eyes laa! and firecrackers were so noisy. but oh well, it wasnt too bad. i got to sit around many cute little kids. so ke ai laa. one even wore cute rat ears.

omg. 2.15am.
gotta wake up for tennis and gym at 9am tmr..gtg!

break it. time and again. you win you know?
its the first attached vday i'm having and its also the first in 3 years that i dine
out with my parents instead.
so isnt it a fact that when i am single,i'm unavailable on vday because i am out with my friends. whereas today when i'm attached, all i am is stuck at home, waiting for yr msg which signalled that u dont wanna go out? so isnt that attached but available?
and the first time my present lies 'un-given' on the table.
how many more times do you have to say all those mean stuff?
how many?
till my eyeballs drop out issit?


SATs. i did more than the ave, but only a little more. whats the use. i cant get the 1900 points i want. i only got 1639.

i feel like shitt now.
honestly, vday cant get any worse.
thanks to the people who attempted to cheer me up.

thanks peeps.
and grats buddy, for passing yr final theory.

urgh. freaking block nose and ulcer. -_-"
its getting on my nerves that i cant breathe properly because of block nose since 2 days back or even move my mouth much because of my stupid ulcer.

i feel like i'm knowing you lesser and lesser.
i feel like i'm on my own.
SATs results are coming out tmr. betcha u didnt know.
how much do we still know each other?

my smses. i mean, even if a person was sick, no matter what they wouldnt let their other half worry right? but to not reply 3 consecutive msges..how many times do you want to do this to me? how many??

everyone. watch dou niu yao bu yao. its a really nice show laa. watch until i cried at one part. so saddening! =(

i should stop relying on others.
i feel so lousy. not being able to take this minute amount of stress alone.
i should stop depending on others.
its time to grow up.

learning to stand on my own 2 feet.

happy birthday mummy. (:
11th feb, my mum's 47th birthday. I think she feels pretty old herself.
met up with my brother at taka to get a gift for her. Ended up getting her an adidas shirt and a huge teddy bear (its undeniable that girls of all ages love teddies, especially big ones laa. can show off mah. LOL. =x )
anyway, my brother kept asking me about valentine day's gift. and he kept asking me how much would a bouquet of flowers cost, and when i told him $80-$90 for 10 roses, he totally freaked out. (I think he's thinking of getting it for a girl. I WONDER WHO. i'm so curious laa. my brother actually has a girl he admires? =O he's normal! lol!)
then i went to get all some things for baby for vday along the way, and taught my brother what idea vday gifts for girls are (chocolate and roses are SO NOT included, plus the fact the price of roses this week is totally exhorbitant!!!).lol.
i think the bestest gift i ever heard so far is that box of stuff elwin gave xiao eeling mummy back in my yr 1. i think that was so sweet. It included all the stuffs she needed in daily life, which showed how much he understood about her life and what she needed... that's my way of doing things too. lol. i dont think gifts should be about the money all the time. though i agree sometimes buying small things end up accumulating to more ='(!

mel is officially pok eye le. =(((

even though he's been evil to me for the past 3 days, i'll forgive him this once. And only once! if he's evil to me again, he's gonna get his dessert. hur hur. i really mean it this time. its cause baby's fallen sick that i'm worried, if not i wont be nice le. hurmph. get well soon ok. lousy leh. always fall sick =(.

been losing weight because of the undue stress i keep feeling from having to move on in life to another phrase. the applying uni phrase and looking for part time job phrase is driving me nuts le. urgh. not bad, i will be reaching my ideal weight of 45kg soon. 0.8kg more to go. lols. =D but not feeling well too. =( that feeling sux.

i'm so bored i keep going online and finding madd madd to talk to. and boy, do we talk nonsense. LOL. hor madd? spouting nonsense is our forte. =|

worried for myself. worried for him. worried for her. worried for everyone. alamak. *faints*

here are some photo updates from november till now. lols





Republic Leg Race =D

my favourite class! =D



Siblings new year day 1! =)





see no evil, hear no evil, smell no evil. haha.

peng chai!

a really really cute dog! =)



to do list:
- learn basic makeup
- get better dress sense
- apply uni
- find part time job
- finish my taiwan dramas! =D

signing off. =)

chalet rawked. it was so fun. people organize another one soon ok? =) highlight of the chalet, YQ and Yikai kissed on the lips! LOL. (so did sueann and I and sijia and sophia, but thats not the highlight.) =| ALL MISS FRY FRY BEE HOON WITH EGG SUEANN's FAULT! Rawr! =x

4th day of new year.
and i'm already feeling like bored shitt.
alone at home with my parents.
both my siblings have a life and have all gone out with friends
what more, my sis's going iceskating. damnit. i so wanna go.

the past 3 day's been kinda shitified for me.
firstly, being overthrown by mahjong sessions instead,
that somebody didnt bother replying for 6 hours? or even a whole day.
and only calling at the end of the day as though i'm the last thing on that someone's mind. or just the boring lullaby that someone needs to fall asleep.
i felt more like single than attached honestly.
maybe its just me who dont get it.

tomorrow's my mum's bday, wanted to go out get her present, but looks like i'm going alone. any takers? maybe i should just meet my brother and go out after his school. if not i wont have any face going for her bday dinner.

when i get concern for someone, the person has to get on my nerves. i'm concern, i scold and he will just say something like there's nobody to feed him. what am i supposed to do? after not speaking to someone or seeing someone for a week, say everything mushy?

looks like my life's just gonna get busier. gonna find a part time job and hopefully feel less alone. and to gain new experience at the same time.
no one understands.

sorry i rejected yr mahjong session tdy wilson. i'm just not in the right mood to mahjong now or travel to woodlands.

maybe whats been so mind boggling lately is that i havent had enough sleep, havent made my applications to uni (and everyone just keeps asking me what are my plans and which uni am i gonna be able to enter when i went to bai nian. EVERYONE. The house i visited yesterday, which was like 3 storeys high and had a swimming pool and garden and roof garden--> their sons were like...one in army, came out of intergrated programme. The other a commando, who went NUS engineering, then realized he didnt like it and then went NTU to do accounting. HOW is it that they get into any uni they want so easily? sigh.I feel like some severely rotten apple. I used to be one of the smarter few, supposed to have a bright future and now i'm just freaking lousy i cant even get into local uni. i've ruined my life.)

but i guess everyone has their own things to deal with now.
madd, i hope you're feeling better with all the things that have been going on at your side lately. if u need me tell me ok?

someone please put a smile on my face.
i really need some smiles now and i believe madd does too.

for now, its just me and the computer, and my favourtie teddy bear. hahaha.
self entertainment in process.

*-Melissa Ng. :]
*-090188
*-Capricorn.
*-Republic poly-Biotechnology. Year 3.
*-standing at a mere 163 cm. :|

LOVES
*-winter holidays
*-teddies
*-romance
*-the one who can make me smile. :]
*-colors: green, pink, blue
*-pumps [:
*-watching stars by the beach
*-donuts!
*-pretty stuffs
*-music. its my life.
*-sweet memories
*-to be loved and to love
*-beach volleyball
*-those havaianas slippers
*-NUM wear
*-puppies
*-hamsters
*-ice-skatingg
*-pretty earrings

HATES
*-cockroaches! EWWW.
*-jerks
*-ghosts :|
*-being heartbroken
*-people who make me cry
*-cocky people
*-backstabbers.

WANTS
*-that YOU
*-everything for my family
*-everything for my friends
*-to stay happy everyday
*-to slim down
*-to be pampered

Madd
Rena
Janjan
Ah ma
Sissy donkey
mr.lion kai
felicia
Junguang
Sueann
Gillian
Shuhui
Jiehui
Jasmine

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As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
Til the end of time forever
You’re the only love I’ll need

In my life you’re all that matters
In my eyes the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You’re the one that’s there for me

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you

Imagine me without you
I’d be lost and so confused
I wouldn’t last a day, I’d be afraid
Without you there to see me through

Imagine me without you
Lord, you know it’s just impossible
Because of you, it’s all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can’t imagine me without you

When you caught me I was falling
You’re love lifted me back on my feet
It was like you heard me calling
And you rush to set me free

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you
I can’t imagine me without you