its the sun and the flower.
and the colours of the rainbow.
these are some of the things i love. <3



I am just like the sun and you the flower. I’ll provide sunlight for you to blossom. Sometimes, clouds will prevent me from reaching you. But you’ll know that I’m always trying to reach you. Just wait for the clouds to clear if you can’t receive my sunlight (:

my feet hurts my feet hurts my feet hurts!!!
stupid heels! i have to say i've never hated heels so much in my life, until the day i have to wear it continuously. urgh! i've got blisters and more blisters. ='(

started work at maybank centre yesterday. Being a temp in their HR department. the people there are an interesting and fun bunch honestly. An intern from SP is one of them. All cute and funny people. haha. But i just gotta speak up a little more though. Still kinda shy because well, its only my 2nd day of work. Having to drag myself out of bed every morning and dress to go to work (Wearing my bloody heels) is really a chore.

SMU interview. sigh. i think i flopped it. Not gonna hope for any letter from them no more. =( so sadded. and no news from either of the other 2. so i am a gone case i guess. I need to pray hard i can get in one. =(

My bestie wrote me a letter today. so nice =). attended a makeup course together with her. man, thos bobbi brown people made us feel like princesses. lols.
hope everything goes well for her. shall reply her letter tmr. time to catch up on sleep!

Went out with ai yesterday and today. hahaha. and well, we tried catching teddy bears and all, but NO LUCK. geez. waste money only. but we had fun anyway. ^^
suddenly i realized i've been too harsh on him sometimes. after starting work, it dawned on me how tiring it actually is..should stop scolding him for falling asleep before calling.. ><

ok. photos! shall upload some. and then i really cmi already. gotta sleep. dont want bigger panda eyes for my graduation day. =\

anyway, everyone play isketch.net! its fun. lol. he hasnt won me. lalala.

Auntie Mel in Working Clothes! =(

My desk! Why i have a laptop and desktop is another long story...Grr.

I caught a teddy for my lil eugg! lol.

My makeup course..everything's pink. =D

What do you do with the veggies you dont like? Play with them, like i did =x

went for Bobbi Brown's make up course with my primary school bestie today. had lotsa fun and i finally know how to put on make-up! =D though i still think eyeshadow and eyeliner totally sucks and will never wear it. it doesnt even look good on me. i'll stick to plain blusher and gloss and lipstick and eye concealer.

went sentosa on friday! we explored sentosa. LOL. ok, and we watched a horror show too. lame show can. thank god it wasnt so scary. and fiona xie basically acted as an ashtray at the end. -_-

photos with ai's new phone =)
alot of me laa. lol.




and if anyone has a job lobang of 2 months doing data entry or customer service (except telemarketing), please contact me ok.

signing off.

ps. I saw sueann today! =D

and its only through all these obstacles and incidents, that people learn to treasure each other alot more =)

ai, misses.
i hope i get to see you tomorrow *fingers crossed*

i think i did something stupid while i was half asleep this morning. lOl.
and i turned down maybank's job offer..cuz i dont think i'll be able to commit for 5 mths. i just hope, pray hard with fingers crossed, that they dont mind me working 4 mths and call me back. I DONT want them to call. i rather find a 3 mths data entry job. >_< i just dont wanna enter workforce yet.

posted my results to SMU today. fingers crossed* pray hardddd harddd.
hope to get an interview.

ai's gonna ot again. oh man.

and damn it.
what have i done again.
sometimes i do things to the point with my heart controlling me head, no longer my head controlling my heart. is that good?
i'm just scared this whole vicious cycle will go round again.
for now, lets try it out.

walking in the rain at west coast park.
trust me, policemen are so inconsiderate nowadays, and SO TERRIBLY BLOODY RUDE la, especially one with leslie lee on his nametag. i am gonna call police post. I was crying while eug was consoling me and then the policemen demanded for our ICs laa! IS IT EVEN LEGAL?! they were so bloody rude and talked alot of nonsense la. damnit. they look more like con-men to me. con-men, WITH GUNS. darn. shitt. if they send me a letter on some dunno wad lame violation or whatever, i'll be dead. -_-" they used a lame excuse such as "heard mas selemat in this area, and scared you youths will be one of his victims..." like WTH! all thanks to police that he's gone in the first place can! urgh. lameness. i doubt he's still in singapore laa purleaseee.

off to shower. cmi. got caught in the rain.
thanks for attempting to keep me away from the rain. =(
sigh. what am i doing.

, 4:08 AM

4.10am..and i still cant sleep.
hahaha. lousy.
eyes so painful they feel like they're popping out.

Shirayuuki. that should be where i put my misery into.
4.13am.
haha.

tomorrow dunnit to cook 'nice' food le...
stone.
4.14am.

time to really try and get some sleep.
urgh. wanna pluck my eyeballs and nose out.
haha.
4.15am.
gdnite.

, 1:28 AM

and everything ended.
i'm sorry i cant take it anymore.
i really tried. i just cant take it anymore.
i cannot take not being able to meet my guy friends one on one le.
its like, my friends ask me out, purely as friends, and i'm not trusted to go out with them, when all i have is staying at home to play maple.. i really going crazy le.
i cant build your trust in me these 7 and a half months. i've tried but i couldnt.
i only see you once a week, sometimes once in two weeks because you're working..i feel so lonely alone and i cant go out with my friends..i feel so trapped. i feel so alone. all i have are smses to entertain me..even our phone calls..end in quarrels.
i'm sorry.
i guess we're both tired.
i guess maybe its better for us this way.
this way i wont restrict your life, and you wont restrict mine.
i know you care for me. i know you love me.
but your love's getting too suffocating.
i'm sorry dear, i'm sorry eugene.
thank you for everything.

hope you find someone less monstrous than me. or at least one who has only girl friends so that you dont even need to doubt her..and one that knows when to joke with you, or when to not. your miss right.
thank you.
goodbye.

my eyeballs look like deep red colored cheeries.
now i really look like a monster. got a shock when i stared in the mirror. wahahahaha.
wahahahaaaaaaa.

Sunday, March 09, 2008, 4:52 PM

its like..so near yet so far. on the same guild list, yet not speaking.
having a phone, but not texting.
only 9 numbers away, but yet so hard to key in.

man, pathetic. who cries while hitting mobs. pathetic. and then get her fame dropped by some passerby who just cant stand her character look?
hahaha. this doesnt get worse.

anyway, still wanna say this, HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY PARTNIE, YOU OLD WOMAN. OLD ALREADY. haha. may all your wishes come true.

hate it when i feel pathetic.
stand firm. stand tall.
be brave. stand alone.

gonna pick up guitar, no matter how stupid an idea it is to some.

Friday, March 07, 2008, 12:05 AM

went to catch a movie with my mum today.
ITS DAMN NICE! well, at least i loved it.
man, Jonathan Rhys Meyers is sooooo cute in the show. and the way he sang...so enchanting awww.
You all gotta catch August Rush. The little boy's so cute too~~
I wish i am just as talented. *envy*

then cause esprit was having sales, and the fact that all my jeans have gotten kinda loose for me, my mum got me a new pair of jeans and a shirt (: yippee. here are my new clothes (:





jonathan rhy meyers' hot =X

Wednesday, March 05, 2008, 11:12 PM

sounds childish...but i wish...i could marry in maple, like it shows even in games i mean the most, and i can do that pq! sigh. dream laa. dream so long le. its stupid.

anyway, recruit express called me back today! =) they offered me this bank loan admin job at textile centre (should be either UOB or maybank) that pays $6/hr, not a lot, but still reasonable. And guess what, someone distracted me, and i didnt hear the work days nor leaves nor duration. and i agreed. all cause i heard its in a bank. omg.

maples getting on my nerves. urgh.
dont feel like blogging anymore. back to bleach.

Monday, March 03, 2008, 11:12 PM

a hilarious picture of mas selamat bin kastari that partnie sent to me. however, i find this even more detailed than the ones the policemen provided, at least these show him in different outfits and hairstyles. hahaa. oh well.

i feel like a worm rotting at home today. and i just keep eating and eating. omg laa. something's wrong with me. i feel so sad by a couple of words someone said to me awhile ago. am i so monstrous? am i that avoidable? i dunno. but those words made me feel i'm not really wanted. or only desired when in the best of moods. hahahaa. wow. such words do hurt. ahaha.

not desired to the fact that i am not wanted online either. urgh. and then i'll be described as unfeeling again. haha. wadever laa. dont want then dont want laa. why am i emo-ing. stupid mel.

go alone. do everything alone. thats a good motto to follow from now on.
and carry a smile even if it hurts.
partnie, mo gu, sii...enjoy your trip. (:

Sunday, March 02, 2008, 12:13 AM

Rena AFTER!

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY LAO TAI PO RENA SIM KAI XUAN!!!
hahaha.
like the gift from me and molly? wahaha. but honestly, i was like so paiseh when u took it all out for others to see. but i can tell u totally loved the jay chou kung fu dunk picture book..so, have fun drooling over him tonite! hahas.
eh, you didnt treat us to dinner afterall lo, so well, does that mean me and jan can post your 'very special' dressed up photo now? =p
anyway, gonna post your really NICE picture below. =p
LAO TAI PO, WELCOME TO MY 20 CLUB. heh.
next up, JANIS LEONG who was late for us for 1 hour today. ho ho.
anyway, we had lotsa fun putting some 'make-up' for mo gu today, and i gave her all the mo gu related stuffs! canned mushroom, campbell mushroom soup, and oyster mushroom chips in a dustbin. Lol~ i think she was stunned laa. hahahaa.
janis, beware ah. hahaha.
it will be
WITH LOTSA LOVE, MEL & MOLS.

went to boys home and old folks home with dad this morning, with a slight flu. urgh. anyway, didnt quite like it. would have preferred going to an orphanage because i click better with little kids.haha. anyways, PHOTOS!

Rena's slice of cake. (NOTE: mel was already starring at the chocolate syrup and winking at molly and jan jan. HURHUR) =p
this was Rena BEFORE. For After, refer to photo right on top. see jan and mols, i told ya we'll make good makeup artists. hahas =|

my good friend of the day. hahas. thanks sweets =)

*-Melissa Ng. :]
*-090188
*-Capricorn.
*-Republic poly-Biotechnology. Year 3.
*-standing at a mere 163 cm. :|

LOVES
*-winter holidays
*-teddies
*-romance
*-the one who can make me smile. :]
*-colors: green, pink, blue
*-pumps [:
*-watching stars by the beach
*-donuts!
*-pretty stuffs
*-music. its my life.
*-sweet memories
*-to be loved and to love
*-beach volleyball
*-those havaianas slippers
*-NUM wear
*-puppies
*-hamsters
*-ice-skatingg
*-pretty earrings

HATES
*-cockroaches! EWWW.
*-jerks
*-ghosts :|
*-being heartbroken
*-people who make me cry
*-cocky people
*-backstabbers.

WANTS
*-that YOU
*-everything for my family
*-everything for my friends
*-to stay happy everyday
*-to slim down
*-to be pampered

Madd
Rena
Janjan
Ah ma
Sissy donkey
mr.lion kai
felicia
Junguang
Sueann
Gillian
Shuhui
Jiehui
Jasmine

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As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
Til the end of time forever
You’re the only love I’ll need

In my life you’re all that matters
In my eyes the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You’re the one that’s there for me

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you

Imagine me without you
I’d be lost and so confused
I wouldn’t last a day, I’d be afraid
Without you there to see me through

Imagine me without you
Lord, you know it’s just impossible
Because of you, it’s all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can’t imagine me without you

When you caught me I was falling
You’re love lifted me back on my feet
It was like you heard me calling
And you rush to set me free

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you
I can’t imagine me without you